Why bother

Suppressing

Things arent getting better.
And everytime when I think that its fine and I can live with it, it slaps punches me back in the face.
Hard.
I don't get why it is so difficult. I guess some things are just meant to be that way.
Don't be a bother when you don't bother. I won't.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. Can I?
Hate being left behind