The Fear

Always there, always have been.

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

And with a knife behind his back,
he walked on in the rain. Alone again.
-Triple Threat-


I need to go scuba diving and escape the world,
I need to play a serious game of basketball so that I can think of nothing else,
I need to go gym and carry weights till I'm senseless,
I need music to create my own world,
I need someone to believe me

I don't care, I'm getting headphones...

What hurts the most

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.

Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing. However it is also something that you cannot bear to lose, and as such, are trying to give whatever you have left to change. It should be known that the changes you're experiencing are extreme and your effort is recognised by many.

-Colorgenics survey-

First day of MST, SPROG
The epic subject I forward module-ed for. It seems.... pass-able...
Went to the wrong class at first, went to T1851 instead of T1551. While everyone was getting seated, realised that my name wasnt in the attendance. Didn't realise that they weren't my classmates, hehh.... No wonder the students there seem to be talking about another subject....

Today is the last paper!! WOOO! BUT, im officially broke...
What a sucky way to start my holidays. Oh well, I still can have basketball, gym, swim whatever~

Went to meet Melvin Lee Yong Hui after so long. Been a while since we catch up. Went gym-ing, then swimming. Tiring work out day. But the amount we ate seem to cover it back up lol.

Still cant do anything right.