Monday, July 26, 2010






Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophesy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.

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Maybe I'm just doing these quizes to know what I want


Monday, July 12, 2010




You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

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It's always good to be a nice person, brings you further in life. (:

Anybody has the game "Plant VS Zombie"? I know you do, get online and send it to me!
I find it.... intriguing....

I've seen interesting/meaningful facebook status-es recently...

Never take anything in relationship for granted, don't assume what they've done for you is easy. They only did it because they love you. Learn to appreciate what your partner has done for you. If not, one will get tired easily. By then, you can't blame them when they feel like giving up.

most guys in the world are simpletons. and to those guys who agree, be glad that we are.


i still do get jealous most of the time. i just find an alternative way to get rid of that feeling.

Ok wait, these are all from guys.... hmm... lets find from girls...
if you could hear what i was actually saying or expressing, you'll be surprised at my vocabulary and expressions
Says to Edward "You have to admit, I AM hotter than you *raise eyebrows* "

haha!
Believe it or not, Gha has not played a sport for 2-3weeks? Wait, is swimming laps a sport? MAN I'm sooo deprived... Balls... I feel like a nerd lol. Going for PTN lunch later, I didnt know that 10bucks is per person. Isn't it like 3bucks per person? lol either way, I'm gonna have free pizza! woo!

Too many dramas been unfolding around lately. I hate dislike dramas. Its usually about 2 people who both think what they are doing is right. And mostly, (dun get me wrong here) it usually involves a girl.... true?

See, even Shakespeare said so! And he's the MOST dramatic! lol.
Seriously people should really listen to both sides of the story, and learn to give in a little. Girls, what guys do is normally because they are THINKING ABOUT YOU. No matter what it is, and no matter how bad it seems. We just think differently. Maybe too different... but thats what makes us guys right? haha.
My stomach is growling...
I wanna go Kinabalu again =/ Should have brought my own camera and got more pictures....


Damn awesome I tell you... My first LTC and the best in my life so far(Y) Even though it was freezing, hands numb, too little sleep, Acute Mountain Sickness (AMS) and whatever, its still the best. Its not how much that went wrong or was bad, but how much I learnt and experienced, and the people of course =]


Two goons.

Ebelybody



Moving on, another topic. Disasters.
oops class ended, another day then....
I wanna feel reckless,

wanna live it up just because

I wanna feel weightless,

Cause that would be enough

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

The Fear

Always there, always have been.

Sunday, June 13, 2010



Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

And with a knife behind his back,
he walked on in the rain. Alone again.
-Triple Threat-


I need to go scuba diving and escape the world,
I need to play a serious game of basketball so that I can think of nothing else,
I need to go gym and carry weights till I'm senseless,
I need music to create my own world,
I need someone to believe me

I don't care, I'm getting headphones...

What hurts the most

Monday, June 7, 2010



You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.

Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing. However it is also something that you cannot bear to lose, and as such, are trying to give whatever you have left to change. It should be known that the changes you're experiencing are extreme and your effort is recognised by many.

-Colorgenics survey-

First day of MST, SPROG
The epic subject I forward module-ed for. It seems.... pass-able...
Went to the wrong class at first, went to T1851 instead of T1551. While everyone was getting seated, realised that my name wasnt in the attendance. Didn't realise that they weren't my classmates, hehh.... No wonder the students there seem to be talking about another subject....

Today is the last paper!! WOOO! BUT, im officially broke...
What a sucky way to start my holidays. Oh well, I still can have basketball, gym, swim whatever~

Went to meet Melvin Lee Yong Hui after so long. Been a while since we catch up. Went gym-ing, then swimming. Tiring work out day. But the amount we ate seem to cover it back up lol.

Still cant do anything right.

Monday, May 31, 2010

The word of the day is, PWNED

Currently: In a lecture where the teacher don't know how to teach and gives the wrong answers.
The students are the one correcting him.

GG
How to study liddat! I need to stop procrastinating! MST next week sia! And I don't know a shit about Micro Controller (MCT) Die. Any kind soul willing to teach me? Hehh, fat hope. Glucose hope. Cholesterol hope....

On a side note, 29 may, hohoho =D
New best day haha.

There goes my lecturer answering his phone... and out he goes...

I need more formal wear. Shirt, pants, shoes.
I need to cut my hair.
I need to study.
I need you.

Its not that I don't like dancing, I just don't think I can

Thursday, May 27, 2010


There goes my diet...

Today I found out my attendance for MCT tutorial is 1/6.
And for my D&I class which I didnt go at all, I'm suppose to invent something by now and present it to the class.
Haha, at least Jaichandar was nice enough to accept me into his class =]

Im itching all over in my fucking balcony.
I used to be used to it ._.
now it itches like banana.....

I keep wondering to myself, what can I do right?

Tuesday, May 25, 2010



I feel stuffed in one corner. Thrown aside. As I watch everything fall apart.
Like killing a bird in my hands because i didn't do anything to care for it, and it would just fly away. Then desperate as I am to keep it from flying, I crushed it in my hands. Cruel. Painful.
Rain.

I'm doing everything halfway. Unfinished business. Maybe not to the best that I can. There's no one who is saying, "Gha, you're doing a great job! Keep it up!" No ones happy with me for the moment. No one. And I can only blame myself. Lecturers, teachers, friends, parents, you.
Neglect.
Emotionally unstable, haha sounds like dementia.
I know people get better through pressure. I know tough times don't last, tough men do. I know winners are those who stay when the going gets tough.
But can I not be that guy? I'm a simple guy, with simple desires.
Can I just ditch my job. I wanna make time.

Yeah, my life's abit kinda far from track. Yeah, I know the storm won't last forever.
I'm just worried what the rain would wash away...
I love her more than she will ever know
I wanna drown
Not cause she doesn't wanna know
my fears
But cause I don't know how to show it.
in music...

Monday, May 24, 2010

Monday, May 17, 2010





Other than my legs opening to wide and my posture.....
I think this pic is the best =D

Told you it was gonna be awesome didn't I? Huhh? Huhh? haha...
Sentosa~~ cliche~

Lucky I didn't get sunburn though I'm a bit darker....
Played soccer, volleyball, frisbee and all the stuff~ Didnt play with sand like i always do though. o.o

Haha, damn fun. Sun, sand, sea.... epic eye closed moment. 1A01, not bad....

awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome

Can you see the difference in my hair? (no, its not falling) lol
Its kinda long story but generally I asked the stylist to cut both side very short. But I only pointed on one side.
I thought it was common sense to cut both side so I assume she knew.....
She cut only ONE side shorter. And me, day dreaming away didn't notice until I left and board the bus.
ARGHHHH

One side feels cooler than the other =/

Sunday, May 16, 2010


BECAME AN INSTRUCTOR TODAY!
Damn fun haha. I feel so... high class =P humble humble....
Kinda fun though, few guys have 2 stars already. wooo~~~

Tomorrow is gonna be an epic-ly awesome day =D haha woo~!!
woo~!!
woo~!
woo~
woo
wo
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._.

Haha THANKS TO JOANNE WEIJUAN AND JOEI!!!! (hope i rmb the right ppl =X)
for the belated belated bday prez!! =]

tmr tmr tmr! wooO! =DD

Wednesday, May 12, 2010



Haha, weird expression, i like! (Y)
Its not what you do, but who you're with that matters.

Guess what, I'm on STOMP! But in an awkward position, grinding Jonathan. The cameraman cant find a better timing to take the shot.

Gotta clear my mind these few days. But its not 'bout what you think. I doubt you understand. And I don't have a reason to make you.

if you cant get someone off your mind they are probably supposed to be there

Today is gonna be a great day. Its Wednesday. Gonna find this girl who absolutely loves making my heart beat fast.

I finally understand the phrase, "Friends are like stars, you might not always see them, but you know they're always there." Complicated stuff, but now understandable. Thanks superwoman =]

Sitting next to you doing absolutely nothing, means absolutely everything to me

Friday, May 7, 2010

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ON HOLD

cause my life is screwed.

somebody get me through this nightmare




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Tuesday, May 4, 2010



I've been busy with so many things that I neglected the one person that means the most to me.
I always thought that it'd be fine and it would all come naturally to me. I guess I was wrong.
I'm sorry that I didn't show that I cared enough. I never want you to feel that way again.
I'll change


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one


BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY =S
Make it idiot proof and someone will make a better idiot.


Met the other two of the triple threat yesterday. Been a while since I met them. Laughed like crazy as usual ;D They never fail haha. As time goes by, I don't seem to have time for anything, but for bros, everything else can wait.

I wanna get headphones. I'm missing the feeling of being engulfed in my own world impervious to my surroundings. I don't mind being hit by a car or two. Ohh mannnn I want it so bad....


As time goes by, it loses its point,
Reasons fade away,
Language barrier goes up,
And im going out

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Heartbeat

GEMS
I joined personal financial planning. Its like... accounting? At least thats what twin said. Guess what my mum taught me was useful after all haha. All the cash flow, Cash In and Cash Out. Didnt bring notes as usual. Everyone there so quiet. Seems pretty much like a business class haha.

CCA

Dance Sport! Guess what. Thats what I'm gonna try out this year. I bet Joanne is SO excited (lol). I'm gonna shake my thang and boogy woogy LOL. =S

WORK

Busy as usual. FYI I have another job other than Prima. Its kinda time consuming, but should be rewarding haha. Wait till I got status then I'll tell the world haha.
EDDIE IS GONNA DIE WHEN I SEE HIM. Nothing else to be said.

PHONE

My phone is screwed! It has this "auto click" function that I "downloaded" when I dropped my phone. So if i hang up on you while you're calling me, its not my fault! It auto hangs up! And if my SMS-es seem short and rude, its cause its hard to type. I'll show you, just ask me...

TIME
I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME! So many things to do. So many people to meet. Every hour there is confirm someone calling. SMS. I'm not saying I'm famous or something... but I don't wanna be tied down to this!!

STRESS

What to do, what to do....

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

TODAY WAS AWESOMEEE
Best day of my life to be honest.
What can i say? Its nothing short of awesome =)


So cool to have the beat in your hands. I admire drummers cause they can read the beat of a song just like that. And when you can see it, the feeling is damn cool! just like getting perfect points for guitar hero haha. And overall, with beats like that, its just pure fun ;D Look at his expression haha

Been feeling very sleepy these few days. Haha maybe thats what happens when you get shocked every single day... Still not getting used to it i guess. Still being shot every single day ._.
I need to study! Seriously Eddie and Athraj aint studying for nuts, and this year's module is even more cheem! Siannnnnnnnn

So many things to plan too. FOC, GO GREEN, STUDY, ARRRRGHHHHH.
niabu ._.
I wanna go run soon. So many things i wanna do, so little time.... I admit I'm very bad with time management.

so damn tired? did you know how i tried to keep it up for a year? when others do to you, its all wrong and shitty, but when you do the same to others its fine? People didnt change, im just tired of reaching out.
Talk is cheap, yeah same to you too.

Monday, April 26, 2010




Life's been kinda cramped. I seriously need time to live and breathe.
Standing on the roof tops, everybody scream your heart out...


Haha, I love the way I talk to the guys with shit loads of vulgarities but we don't mean it.
It just seems normal lol.

E - where the f***k are you
G - in class bodoh. eh s**t i got break later, wanna go eat?
E - i end at f***king 1 cb
G - same lahh f***ck
E - knn then find u at fc5 later uh
G - i duwan fc5 lahh ccb
E - knnccb then where you wan siol
G - fc3 lah nb
E - ok ok set lol

haha. FOC planning is driving me nuts. Feels like im walking on a road with alot of holes. Some things incomplete. Some things, dunno how to do. Screwed. RAMS, Emergency contacts, Safety protocol, Proposal. Why cant everything just be impromptu and tell the freshies to "join at your own risk". Thats the point of an indemnity form lol. Worked yesterday, bought new slippers haha nice (Y)

There's something different with the way i look. Look at me, then tell me what you think. Its small, but its there! Haha always wanted to try everything at least once. But now I don't know what to do with it...

Hmm... Its been a while since I did an eskimo roll... Hope I don't lose the feeling.
Or else i get a FAIL roll.
ha...
Funny uh?

Ok, I'm frigin hungry. Can you hear my stomach growl...
hey you
hear that?
can you hear how fast you make my heart beat?

Thursday, April 22, 2010


GREEN DAY! WOOO!! WE WON!! HAHA!!! FIRST PLACE!! 500BUCKS!!!

expected... =P kidding.

Was doing last minute practices though to me it really looked cmi haha. When we performed, Jon forgot his lyrics and some people forgot to do some stuff? Haha... When they announced the runner up and our group name wasn't there.... we were like... "Oh, if we not second then confirm we first lahh!" lol joke, but in the end it was true! haha!

Won 500 bucks, interviews from SPH, SP media, an autograph session at SB, a showcase, a write up on us, video clips and pics of us on GO GREEN WEBSITE!!! woo! sweet prize eh? ^^

I realise I'm a busy person... Hmm... maybe I should tone down abit... =/

Not only do I feel like shit, I also feel like shitting...

Haiz...

When I'm doing work, somehow I don't like to mix in fun with it. As in, when its time to be serious, I believe we shouldn't just waste time and fool around. There's a time for everything and that totally wasn't the time to be talking crap.


You make me feel....

Monday, April 19, 2010

First day of school!

Started with a room full of freshies. Wa go there just to download software is damn dumb. Should have pon-ed and eventually did...
Went to find Eddie and Yan Hui, in their math class. Crash with them to find out Eddie is actually in my class... well, with all the forward module we have, its kinda complicated...
Haha its a fact ;)
Uncharted lands....

It was since the day I met you
Welcome to my life, I hope you'll stay
I'll know you better and you, me too
I just hope you won't go away

You make me happy, you make me smile
You never fail to surprise me every single day
And guess what, I think I'm in love with your smile =)
Just the girl I'm looking for