I promised I'd do all I can

Something cool to listen to, "Made" by Dub FX

Went to the Poetry Slam thing today. Actually poets are quite cool. They can bring out emotions. They can make you feel sad, happy, angry, anything they want you to feel. Makes you think too. They use alot of good phrases too like,

"If you don't want to work, you will have to earn enough money so that you won't have to work".

or this,

"Don't regret anything if you gave your all"

Free food after it ended too. Brownies and Pie Kia ^^

Something happened today that made my day.

So I was like sitting there with Jon and 2 girls who were patiently waiting for their boyfriends who were playing bball. I say patiently cause even I think that it took too long for the boys to end their game, but the girls still waited. So happens that one of the girls knew a dancesport member and actually wanted to join, but her boyfriend didnt let her.

All I told them was the reason why I joined dancesport and they were telling me how jealous they were. One of them told me "If only my boyfriend was like you." Obviously her boyfriend got jealous of me later. They told me it was really a sweet thing to do. They even told me "You confirm got alot of girls wanna dance with you" haha.

I finally felt appreciated =]
See, when life hit an all time low, the only place left to go is UP =)

I wanna get another guitar soon. Got a software to compose my own song =D

Found my BEATZ

"So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away."
-Jason Mraz-

Hoo hooo.... abit high. Helped 3 people in need today. A friend in need is a friend indeed. Maybe they'll be my friends lol.
Pool training! Start soon! Sports elective last day this sat! WOOOO! lol.
The last time it Sports elective kayaking ended, it became like this,

To this,

And this.....
To this.....Cause thats life, it will always try to pinch you in the nipple ;D

I don't understand your huge ego, wanna shrink it down a little?
Like a good fiend of mine once said, "Expectation will never meet the lines of reality" =]

No regrets

Its another 19 today.
Marks 9 month of me loving her. Yeah I may not be the best guy, but I know I loved her with everything I could. At least all that I know. Haha reminded of an epic moment that I actually impressed a random aunty beside us while we were eating at Carousel for her birthday. The aunty was impressed with the necklace I gave her. Ohhh yeeeaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh.

Happy anniversary, to my heart. Its not with me.
Not the first day you know me, "Good morning, I'm Gha" =]




I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your okay
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

She never did understand, I knew who the people were.
When it comes to me, its wrong but when she does the same thing, shes right.
I guess I cared too much for someone who cared too much about herself.

Someday...

Between the lines

Between the lines of fear and blame.

Guess its true the days keeps on getting worse. Damn I wished for brighter days.
Lucky it rained after the race. I love the rain. I just like its presence. Seem to wash away everything.

I know guys are supposed to shed blood. But I already did, so am I excused?
Doesnt matter. I'm just confused. Should I tell you? Or just move on when I gave everything and I was just brushed away so easily with a short sentence. You tell me I should understand and give in more, when I'm already at my limit.
I don't need fake concerns. Dissapointed, maybe its my fault. Of course it is.

I wish tomorrow will be a better day. I'll keep wishing. Even if it doesnt comes or I dont believe in it.
My feet is pale with blisters. My shoe has a big hole at the bottom. No glue. Wallet missing. Broke. Knuckles skinless. Wrist sprained.
It cant get any worse... right?

Haha it was a fun race. Not as good as last years though. I'm kinda hungry, wanna eat, eat, eat.
Tomorrow will be great =] Shes happy, I'm happy. We are all happy peopleeee =P

Paper bags and plastic hearts

Dammit, I hate this feeling

Between the lines.

You can either see that roses has thorns, or that thorns have roses.
Its all about me? It never was. But theres no point explaining.
See, wishes never come true.

Solitary, you don't know the meaning of that word.
Pms-ing freak , haha

This world will never be what i expected

I wish it was different
I wish you would listen
I wish you would notice
I wish you wouldnt blame me so much
I wish you could understand
I wish you could see how much I lost
I wish I could tell you that I'm not the only one always at wrong
I wish I wasnt taken for granted
I wish you could see the things I did, and not what I didnt

Its just a wish, not like it will be granted. Cause I don't believe in fairy tales.
Would you rather be a beggar with no money, or be someone who has money, but all his friends avoid him as he never keeps to his word? There would be nothing left. Time, friends, dreams, aspiration or something to look forward to. Its just like an empty shell braving the weather.
Yeah, I know I used to say I go wherever the river takes me. But only the dead follows the currents.

What am I fighting for?
(and you would ask, " Are you even fighting?")

Average Joe

Cant seem to do anything right.

I don't seem to be good in anything. Average Joe? I don't wanna be one. Tried from sports to arts. They were fun but 3 years later, I still can't find something I'm good at.
Maybe I just try to act smart sometimes. A little knowledgeable. Not just a goof monkeying around. But it doesn't really work. You can't hide the fact that I'm not really good at it. I'm not getting anywhere.

Stagnant waters. Its been 3-4 months? If I'm not wrong. No improvement anywhere. No enlightenment. No life. 2011 is a new year. I really don't wanna waste my time anymore.
Gotta find something I'm good at and go all the way.

For now, no such luck...

2011

Hey 2010.
The good, the bad, the worst. Tried and learnt a few things. What can I say? You were awesome. Everytime I look back, all I can remember are the great times. Maybe a little embarrassing. Maybe thats the way it should be. Memories shouldnt hurt.

Speaking of pain....
I had a habit of putting my leg in front of anything I don't want to let roll down a slope. Lets say Theres a ball rolling down a slope. I'd put my leg in front of it so it stops rolling.
Makes sense right?

Well.... Not if its a go-kart that is rolling down the slope. My kart was stalled as it went up a slope. I stupidly went out to find a mechanic. Realised it was rolling down and placed my leg in front of it. Felt like someone breaking my bone SLOWLY. It wasnt like a hammer, cause it was slow but heavy.
Ouch.

Hi 2011.
Nice meeting you. Hope things will get better and that I get to pass everything I take! All the courses, the attachments and liscences. And of course, money please! I'll be good....

Sometimes I wish someone would record the best points of my life and show me at the end of every year. Wouldnt that be good?

Some love to hate and some love to lie

If anyone cared

To be understanding is more important than to be right.

Nice one VP.

Kappish?

I should get a medal for going through that.
And through every lesson.

Nope, I don't believe in santa.

-Sealed-

Sometimes I just wish someone understands.

Say what you need to say.

"Send someone to love me,
I need to rest in arms
keep me safe from harm
in pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing, all I can

To be a better man"

Mind's cluttered with words.
Speech stunned by the exit of all the things needed to be said.
I know I have my reasons, I know I did try, and am still trying my best.
Say what you need to say

Hear me out? No. Not needed. No explanation or excuses necessary.
Cause it won't be heard. Cause it won't change anything.

But one thing's for sure, you have no idea.

"Go easy on my conscience
Cause its not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame"

AX overrrr!!!!!!

Lack of sleep, kinda common nowadays.

Back from AX. Actually kinda disappointed that they're getting less torturous treatment than us. Though I think they're kinda suay with the worst luck of all. Rain, pain, faint. Haha kinda rhymes. But they do have initiative to do some things themselves. Can't compare though.

Damn shiok sleeping in hammock. Either that or cause I really lack of sleep. I hope its not the latter. Cool wind, kinda learnt sumthin about predicting the weather.

Gonna get rock shoes but there's $0 in my acc. Damn, money money money. Loosing it while my other half is gaining it lol.

Its not easy to be me

Confusing world

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Pardon the giberish. Thats what happens when you faceplant on your keyboard after realising your stupid mistake. Thought I had expedition today, found out it was next week. By then I was half way to sembawang already. And I was soooo looking forward to it =(

Today, other than learning that my nose covers 3x3 keys on the keyboard, I realise that the world is a confusing place to be in. Ever heard of the story of the Cow, Old Man and his Son?

They were on their way to the market and they met certain people who said certain things.
Man1 : The man is old, we should respect the elders and let him sit on the cow.
The old man sat on the cow and continue their journey.
Man2: The boy is so young, he gets tired easily, you should let him sit on the cow.
They complied and continue their journey.
Man3: You shouldnt sit on that poor animal! thats animal abuse!

See, different people have different views. And its so confusing! Everyone knows the saying "Ladies first", then no one disagrees when they hear that "Men should lead the way"
How do I solve the problem? Easy. What are we talking about again?

On a side note, everyone knows how to count their ten fingers, but I know 3 ways to count my fingers up to eleven =]

MST screwed?

Another Quiet night

Unconsciously we do that don't we?

Scroll up and play the song I heard. Actually by Michael Jackson. Realise his songs is always meaningful (maybe other than about Billy Jean). I guess no one can do what he does.
Well, maybe just his moonwalk.

Missing the sea again. Seriously I feel more free in a kayak than walking. Thats why I'm trying to learn doing flips and handstands. Kinda give you more variety to ways you can move.
On your legs,
On your hands,
On your butt,
On your elbows?

Le Parkour. An exciting sport to learn one day. Its the closest you can feel like flying without wings (other than jumping off a building. Oh wait, it is about jumping off buildings.)
ahh... one day...

maybe I'm just searching to be free...

Singaporeans

Crazy people in singapore, never learn to move in the bus. Always cramming the front. Bus was jam packed like sardines.... only at the front. At the back I still have enough space to fart and no one would know who. People ~.~

Kinda funny that I'm only updating before MST's. Yes yes people, I can see that I got fans screaming for me in my Cbox ;P

A carefree life. I guess everybody wants that, but only a handful have it. You can count on it that they are from hawaii.

After exams, front flip training, here I come

Disappointments, they seem to come after you think everything's fine

Love is like flying a kite. There are times when you need to learn how to release the string and pull back with the right pressure. When the kite-flyer pulls too hard, the string will become too taut and snap.

Why would the kite-flyer pull hard at the string?

Kite-flyer wants to possess the kite. The kite-flyer refuses to let go. The kite-flyer wanted the kite to be in his/her arms only.

But the kite belonged to the sky. The kite needs its own space, its own freedom. Yet, it feels safely close to the best friend – the kite flyer, safely tagged by the string to earth.

Only the kite flyer that understands the kite most can make the kite soar and display all the beautiful colors on it

-from anonymous

True aint it?
Been wanting to fly a kite for so long. Got the string but not the kite. I wanna get the big big ones haha.
That way when I fly it, everyone will see. Anybody wanna join me? At WCP one day...
The feeling of flying a kite, its just awesome. Just like throwing a boomerang =p

Time seems to be zooming past me like in an F1 race haha. Instead of hitching a ride, I feel like playing poker cards by the side. or maybe chinese chess hehe
Gotta study. who hasn't said that?
Expectations.


Sit back, enjoy~ =]

Cute aint it?
Remember when you were a kid. The world was your playground. Jump around without worries. (maybe worry that ur diapers get heavy haha)
I remember I love to climb to the highest places I can find. Above the biggest rocks, or up the highest slide.
As you get older, you get bigger, and feel as if the world is getting smaller. You start getting stuck in cubes.
(cubicle, classroom, office, car, bus, etc.)
Feeling trapped in a small place aint a good feeling, especially for a tall guy like me.
So I find the vast ocean more comforting =]



I wanna go out, see the world. It makes me realise that, we are actually very tiny in the world. If one day a tornado sucks me up in the sky, how many people's life would change? Not much compared to the billions of people who don't even know me.
I don't mind falling off a cliff high in the mountains or drowned by a huge wave. If its what I like to do then it doesn't matter. Maybe its the adrenaline rush, but when everything is silent, it all seems serene.

3star course was sweet, learnt alot. Great people, brain felt like a sponge haha. Learnt some diving too. Coaching next I guess. Even if you're aiming for the stars, but landed on the moon, why not do some zero-G backflips or sumthin to celebrate the moment =]

A successful man is one who wakes up in the morning, goes to bed at night, and does what he likes in between.

Heya, thanks for dropping by =]
Guess I didnt update the blog as much as I want to
Life's been passing by me lately. I feel so busy. So screwed. So relieved. So nervous.
But then again, what have I done?

Nothing much really. Just pursuing my escape.

I hate following the crowd. Being normal. Doing the usual.
I wanna do things the unorthodox way.
I wanna see the flowers at our feet when people are looking towards the moon.
I wanna see the beauty of the world and not get stuck in the rat race.
Explains why I still balance on sidewalks.
All I need, is a friend.

3star's been great, to learn new things. The world is small indeed haha.
It seems like its the only thing that I never get tired of learning.
Getting coaching soon ;)

Been a while since I used my headphones to listen to music. Feels great hehe...



Whats that? I can't live my life that way?
Just watch me.