EEE GYL

Back from GYL camp!
For those of you who didnt know, I went for EEE GYL camp at M'sia along with the CLS.

Basically it was a typical leadership camp, but it was more fun on the GALA night.
Ohh, theres paintball too, but when i realised the ability of the paint ball to go straight is very bad, it quickly became boring. Hitting the small cup targets were only by chance and the balls leave quite some bruises.

Compared to the CLS, our GALA night was very very high where everyone laughed till their guts came out. I guess it because we were mainly guys so we knew how to have fun ^^When we went up to the CLS room, it was so quiet and formal that we were struck by the change in atmosphere. Haha. Our dress code was pyjamas and theirs was formal. You can imagine the akwardness haha. When their GALA king and queen were doing the catwalk, they got a round of applause. When OUR GALA king and gay were walking, we did the PERERA wave haha.

In the end we decided to bring the party to their night by blasting music and started jumping up and down. That was the FIRST time in my entire history of SP that i felt that high. Everyone was. I literally just went up to 2 guys i didnt know, put one arm around each shoulder, wait 3secs for the choras and..... start shouting/singing it while jumping! Thats officially the fastest and weirdest way I made a friend haha.

My group name was "outcast" cause we all agreed we all have been outcasted before. We also agreed that since we were gonna be outcasted, we were gonna be a different breed of group. The most hyper. The most loudest. The most bonded. Haha and thats what happened. It went so well that half way through the camp, other group people began to join us during lunch, breakfast and dinner haha. Its been a while since I've been out with the guys only. Theres a different feel when theres no girls ya know. At first I was like "damn, no girls, its gonna be boring" but then the guys were talking about how its better cause girls from SB keep stabbing people in the back. No offense, EEE guys also stab people. But its more out in the open and not behind haha. Its fun anyways, get to go crazy and all, its the escape I was looking for =)


This boy was in the CLS GYL camp. We realised we were going to the same camp at 1am on that day lol.

OUTCASTS!!!

Bollywood can also be found in malaysia...

Paintball in the RAIN!!

VICTORY : we won all 3 groups. Sharpshooters eh? Guess which is me

Hmm......














DING! I got an idea!

OUTCAST! Alex extreme right, joined us. I cant seem to use the chopsticks properly and when I finally can, the food was gone =(

Some game to challenge the process...

Trying to bring the fun to the CLS GALA night. The atmosphere was undescribable. Damn high, loads of fun. Everyone juz danced or jumped to the beat~!
Stack 'em up~ haha plenty of these during the camp
I look tall here haha, graduated!

EEE GYL FTW WTH OMG BBQ ._.

Oh, theres also another way to move room to room....
tada~~

On the way back, few peeps from other groups, me and jon went to get same shirt for no big reason. We got our own fan page haha! there are only 5 of us but i don't know why more fans! haha ELECTRON BOYS

Change - No more procrastinating. Its time for change.

A post of lyrics.

A Post Of Lyrics

"I'll Be Ok"

Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be someone. Played my part.

Like a saturday night I'll be gone

Action speaks louder than words
Listen to the words I never said....

HAPPY BDAY LINGY!!!! [160310]
You cheat my feelings too much alr lol
Life may be fast, but you can take things slow and steady ;D
And next time, ask you bf if he fetching you home!

HAPPY BDAY STEPHANIE!!! [160310] =)
5 years old! haha forever 5~
I didnt have time to wrap the presents and I think i forgot to take the tags off lol sorry!


Went kayaking as usual, tide was high, oil was slimy. Tried to do rolls again, think im starting to get the feel for sweep roll. Not bad... haha. Fought for plantoon dominance lol, something we must keep doing to keep the tradition! lol.

shit, still forgot to dubb the sea store key....

Went all the way to the other side of the country for Stephanie's BBQ~! [Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.]
Helped her mum at the BBQ pit! She said i was handsome ^^ This is the second time she told me this. And this is the second time I met her! LOL. Her mum is very... lively lol. I had to make a conscious effort to remind myself she is not just a few years older than me. She is a MUM. Her Butter Prawns (which ironically has no butter in it) are still the best lol. Slacked with tootie and her mum while Steph and the kids go up lol. Tootie got drunk somehow and started dancing. My eyeballs shrank....

Listening to the rest talking bout their teenage troubles makes me feel like I want those troubles so that I can crap it out with them lol. Had ice-cream cake! Though I was more interested in the dry ice lol. It started bubbling when its placed in the water. Pool water of course haha. While everyone else were packing up upstairs, getting ready to go home, I was with tootie and Steph's mum downstairs talking ADULT stuff. Haha kidding. Was sent to mrt and I went wee wee wee all the way home~~

I can't let this happen again
Cause then you'd see my heart
In the saddest state its ever been
This is no place, to try and live my life
Relient K - Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

Living one step at a time....

We treat different people differently for a reason.

Maybe because they always joke around so we take things they say as a joke even if they mean it.
Maybe because they are always serious so we take things they say seriously even if its a joke.
Maybe because they told you that you never listen so you take everything they say seriously and lost your ability to joke with them.
Maybe they told you that you have no sense of humor so to prove them wrong you laugh at everything they say.

Even if everyone say the same thing, each and everyone of us would get a different response. Some might laugh, some might believe. Some might ignore, while some might listen.

Is that fair?

Just because he is quiet so you don't tell him things even if he should know it. He'd be like a frog in a well, not knowing anything that is happening around him.
Doesn't that make him shut himself even more?

Maybe its something they said, or something that you assume they think.

How do you solve this problem?
Do you tell them people that they never listen, and everyone would take you seriously even when you tell a joke.
Then you'd have to tell them you're just joking, and they would never take you seriously.

Sometimes I think, if you confront the problem, it would only create more problems.
Bias. Thats the word.

I'm not used to being a background character.
Im not complaining, I'm just putting down my thoughts on black and white.
And you'll be sighing saying "not again"

Leaving for Genting in a few hours time. See you'all peeps in 3 days ;D

People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you may win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.
People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.

Mother Theresa

Handover was a success. Haha I guessed everyone had fun =) Somehow it didnt feel like the seniors were really gonna leave to me. Nevertheless it was great. Thanks to all the guys carrying the chairs and tables. Its really a pain-in-the-ass labour work. Appreciate it. Chi heng and Benedict too for coming to school today for only half an hour to help shift all the chairs and tables on a sunday morning haha. Sounds like we have no life =X

Found something...
lol die daily! haha!

Shocked. Happy. Surprised. Curious. Elated. Speechless.
Currently (still) being flooded by emotions. To the point where I don't know what to say or which emotion to show haha.
Hmm.... I'll start from this...

THANKS SPA FOR THE BAG!!!!

Its damn cool! And its actually damn perfect! Haha! Theres a shoe compartment and a place for my laptop. SWEEEEEEEEEET

And...

THANKS CHUN YU DUAN FOR THE....... PLANK!!! haha! I mean board =)

Its really very nice (Y) HANDMADE okay. Painstakingly glued, cut, chosen, written! Now I understand what you wanted to make haha. Nice! (Y)

Awestruck.

Playing with the kids was quite fun actually =) They make me feel needed haha. I guess lingy's right. According to her, I'll always be the one babysitting kids during any gathering.

you make me wonder

HAPPY BDAY TAN LIWEN [040310]
Your lucky I didnt post an unglam pic of you cause you know I got a million and one haha!Ok uhh... this is the most not unglam of the unglams haha. It aint all that bad =X Brown eyes =D Seee, you look so pale. Eat and exercise lol. Follow your hubby haha.

Thanks for all the well wishes people! Especially those who wrote the letters =) It means more to me than you know =) Finally finished replying all facebook posts. All of the replies are different and unique ok! Not generic~~

Ran to Kent Ridge from school today! Its a total exercising day haha. Bball, gym, run, swim. Sweat it out!
Happy birthday to me~

Because I'm weary
Invisible

"We have so many masks we put on everyday that we realise we don't longer know which one is real."

Last paper! And I'm free~~! Still have to make police report of missing IC though I got everything back. Troublesome school. Looking back on past posts (as in way way back like 2 years ago) those times we're actually very carefree. Don't hafta plan for anything the next day (other than dreaded training) Guess its all in the process in "Growing Up".

I wanna go to the sea. Just stare at the waves, feeling the sea breeze and smelling the salty sea water. I feel strangely calm in the water. Its the next best thing to music. It lets my mind drift away...

Greatly in need of an escape. Not just from exams. Hmm, maybe Genting would help. Sleepless nights would be the best. Hopefully I'd get "The View" =P

Accept it and move on. The usual.

Alfie Teng left me cold, freezing, hungry, lonely, tired and bored under his block. Called him a million times on his phone but he never answered. Luckily his sister heard it and answered. She still remembers me haha, for all the wrong reasons. While that idiot went out and "forgot" to bring his phone.

AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways. Been slacking with the triple threat. I learned a few stunts and tricks! Gotta train more to do them better! There's this pipe at Glens pool which just pours out tons of water, feels like a waterfall when you stand under it. Sat there a while talking crap. 5mins later my back was already itching and red from the "waterfall" the itch was kinda adictive haha. 10min and my back was kinda numb, but I like the feeling! Wonder if the monks are training to endure that pain ._.

Hmm, DE last paper and I'm free. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things i wanna do. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things I wanna get. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many excuses to not study lol.


ahh, the old days. This was made when we had to make a video for Social Studies. These are just the bloopers. Pat made this. Featuring Gha, Mel, Glen, Jasmine Ker, Yulin and Patrick! Anybody knows how I can download this video?

Feelings are a chore

FUCKINGA
SSHOLESO
NOFABITC
HBASTARD
KNNBCCBD
ICKSHITC
RAPTURDW
HOREPISS

I lost my wallet.

Went to make my atm card today! YES! I know I'm very very very outdated, all these time you people used these cards all I had were pieces of paper and flat round metal. Now I'm joining you modern peeps yo! Yeah, I'm still HIP and COOL ^^v
Haha, but exactly after I made it and went school, Jian Wei told me debit card was better, which I agree..... Anyone up to get a UOB debit card? The perk is you'll be more hip =)

Walked around Queensway with Pang, Arvin and Duan finding someone to make our shirt. We ended up walking to Ikea, and Anchorpoint, round and round lol like Bermuda triangle. Totally didnt feel like theres exams, though it NEVER feels like theres an exam other than the day itself. Laughed alot today, my mum once told me "Never laugh too hard or too long. Later misery and sadness would catch up to you." I always believed it, cause after you get high and crazy, once you're out of the high-ness... haha, like drinking coke =D

P.S. Thanks Guoshu and Gui Hao for helping me with my studies!
P.P.S. Alfie you're totally dead on friday for leaving me waiting for you below your house and leaving you're handphone at home at9PM!

hypocrite
I tried

Water balloooooooooon! lol!

Just realised I keep stopping halfway in almost everything I do. Music, training, basketball, programing. Haha, bet you didnt know i did some of these stuff. I need someone to keep egging me on I guess, or else when it gets to the hard part, my mind would just shut off like a bird fainting in the sky ._.
Jack of all trades master of none? Haha better than nothing, but I think I need to be proficient in something or else I won't be satisfied! grrr

On another note, I feel like running ._. Its been a while since I sweat out by running. I wanna sprint. Run far and fast without stopping. No boundaries =) Then breathe hard as though I'm about to die haha!
Or play basketball! Been damn long since I had a serious match. Head to head. Blacking out everything else in my mind. Everything moves slow. Haha I bet anyone who doesnt play basketball would be like "wtf is he talking about?"
I wanna run, jump, fly. C'mon anyone?

You, are not "everyone" else.
you only appear as "everyone"
when you're not important to someone

Hilda - waa, motivational speaker lol!

Enough broooooooooooding, time to spread the smiles ;DNice pic! (Y) haha! Thanks Jasmine for inviting us over!!! Woo~!!
I wan mini eclare nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!
I don't mind where you come from, as long as you come to me

Thanks yutai for inviting us and treating us KFC today haha. Nice house, artistic haha.
Jus cause of an art piece in the living room lol! Watched small big.....
.... after that. Funny, but its generally slap-stick humour. Wanted to watch Valentines day, but SOME people...... cheat my money lol. 3rd Movie in 3 days. Save la!
So now you know.

When the visions around you, bring tears to your eyes.
And all that surrounds you, are secrets and lies....
Have you ever felt so lonely in a crowded room?

Been out with the sec sch gang recently lol. Been awhile, when you wanna meet up I guess you gotta plan yourself lol. Played bball till I cracked my ribs from laughing haha. Been a while since I literally roll on the floor laughing LOL! Bball with them is more a joke than a game lol. Went Gym at my hse after that. Somebody was suppose to come later and stay over no matter tornado, tsunami, or earthquake! But he ps us..... so juz went to swim then mel left~

KERYN WAI KAR LING. See, I remember your full name. Its been a year since you said anything so now we're putting matters in our own hands and called you LOL. Its been a century since we had a conference lol. But as usual, you're FOC, full of crap....

Today was the most waste money day. There was actually another intent for this day but it totally didnt happen lol. I was late, but I came even LATER thanks to mel. Watched the lightning thief thingy. Not bad. But i think the ending is abit rushed? =X We had to sit front row so neck abit...... THEN, things happened and bla bla bla, suddenly I find myslef getting tickets again, for 14 blades. FRONT ROW again.... haha but it was a nice movie, lucky they don't talk much while fighting or else I cant see the fights cause I gotta read the subtitles lol. 2 movies, wasted 20 bucks. In a day. Damn fast. First time I spend my WHOLE day at JP. Epic fail.

ARVIN, wanna watch Dear John??

I'm back in business =]
Trying

Went to my cousins erm.... wedding preparation?
Its not exactly the wedding. Went to my cousins house for food (bwahaha) and carried all the gifts to the bride-to-be house. I dropped a whole tray of sweets which was for the bride's family! Omg! Damn malu sia. My mum was like "Lucky i forgot to tell everyone you worked as a waiter before" -.- I was trying to keep my ipod with one hand and the tray in the other when yuduan msg-ed me. Gave me a shock and... there goes the whole tray...... Luckily i wasn't carrying the rings! LOL

Went finding Guoshu at harbourfront. Shes doing the survey job! haha, shes under LTA but I was under Tourism. Should have taken my advice and just bullshit the survey lol. Hey, experienced minds give good advoce ^^v Went slacking at esplanade with Pang, Jian Wei and yuduan. Took a ride on the "Meteor" at the carnival. It jus spins and spins. Felt like vomiting a few times after that though =X I like those kind of rides cause at night, I'd always feel like im on the ride even though I'm on my bed haha. Big waves works too =D Rock me to sleep lol!
Unnecessary?
The little things in my life. I'm afraid that I take them for granted everyday. So I'd do something a little special everyday ;D Haha

Ur asking for an ipod for your birthday?? Ok, I think i need 2 more jobs...
I really hate arguments. I'll learn

ALRIGHT~!!!!
To all the peeps who celebrate it, HAPPY CNY!!!
Probably wouldnt have time to read this cause they'd be too busy stuffing themselves haha.
Went kayaking today, for once I'm not any darker haha. Gonna wear rash guard more often.
Found out people DO come here to read this crap. TAG lahhhhhh, i thought no one read sia =X
Yes, I'm talking to you. -.-

what are u waiting for?

go click! >>

This looks like a scene of a mafia murder lol! All wearing the same shirt too. The water there was quite shallow. Even if you stand at where the waves are formed, it would only be up to your my waist.

HAHA! FINALLY someone can explain what music is to me lol!
Music clears the mind of conscious thought so you won't have to keep thinking about anything that you're not supposed to. Yeah, so true.
So sing out loud ;D

Cant show, cant tell.

I used to feel like this lol. Small, afraid to take a step forward. Ironic I know lol. I'm getting too busy during march. I kinda knew this would happen but I thought it was gonna be fine. I'm already broke, but now I'm also broke of time. I've got none to give away. Dang =/
Haha, but i doubt i even have that. CLIMBING and KAYAKING tomorrow! Then GYM or BBALL! I keep filling my time with these things to keep my mind occupied, but sometimes, i think i need a break =]

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty, but I'm smling at everything
I sound really pathetic ._. too tired to bother....
smile, you'll never know who would miss it

Im starting to like this picture lol. Reminds me of the feeling of going up high mountains. That feeling is niceeeeeeeee.

Currently at Jian Wei house. His house is very tall-people-unfriendly. I cant fit through his door.... lol. His room is damn messy, walk in and the first thing i see his a pair of boxers. Clubber uhh, what do you expect lol.

OHH, I went back HYSS yesterday. The bubbletea aunty still recognise me sia! Alriiiiight! haha. She asked me "The usual?" lol. She told me no one was as tall as me in HYSS so far that she see. Made my day ^^ And I found out the name of the guard uncle who always crap with me today! ROBERT ONG. Haha, there was a time I was waiting for basketball training to start and he talked to me about his life. Hes a grandfather! But he's still cool, IN, and hip ^^ Only now then i know his name. Better late than never eh?
HYSS night cycling. wanna go?


I'm so gonna travel the world in the future. My life goal. Its so cool! See the sights, smell the stuff, taste the food and go home.... haha.

PS. I should learn to choose the clothes I wear before going school and not just randomly pull stuff out. Wearing all white makes me look like I'm in pyjamas....
reminisce
Its better to get the whole truth than a sweet lie

Why do people react differently even though its the same thing just said by different people? Did they do something wrong?

Sometimes I wonder, and all the "what if"s come to my mind. Its not related to me, but more like things that are out of our capability. Like what if the whole world speaks one language. Wouldn't that be easier and solve alot of problems? There would be no such thing as language barriers.
Or if we can read minds, there would be no secrets, just plain honesty. Then Prof. Charles Xavier wouldn't be called a mutant haha. Everyone could just understand everyone else.



DE labtest was a breeze hoho. I think I'm getting sick, my head is throbbing after climbing every flight of stairs. Even when I walk fast I get dizzy. My walking speed today was amazingly slow, feel like a snail lol.

Never make someone a priority in your life when you're just an option in theirs.

True?

Pengarang

Pengarang~
Back from two days of butt splitting back breaking cycling.
Gotta say good job to those who planned it. Everything went fine. Especially my recreation. Told you it'd work out =P
Though I don't like the way everything is planned till I didnt know anything. At all. Other than recreations. Maybe its just me as usual lol. I can still feel the seat of the bike on my ass..... Oh, yuduan you should have came sia! There were alot of your friends crossing the road. Somehow they grew tails!

yuduan took yuduan this yuduan pic yuduan at yuduan the yuduan hilltop yuduan library yuduan . Ignore yuduan her yuduan face yuduan , just yuduan admire yuduan mine yuduan. Love yuduan this yuduan photo yuduan man yuduan lol yuduan. Haha see, your name is everywhere. Who say don't have??

OH and we found a book there which basically says this....
which is soooo true.....


Got this in my mail:

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily.. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes gets the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.

I don't think it changes much every year. Im soooooo broke right now. Missing Alfie bday tmr cause im BROKE. It feels so bad to be BROKE. Do you know the meaning of BROKE? B-R-O-K-E. To have no money at ALL. Sian.... The things I do....

Do you ever feel like breaking down.
Do you ever feel out of place.
Like somehow you just don't belong.
and no one understands you
Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

Burn Baby Burn

Exams coming = DIE
I don't think i ever studied. Just alot of projects to finish. I finished my 1k proposal plus Reflection Journal can you believe it!?!
Currently freezing while "listening" to presentations. This just shows im not thick skinned ^^
This month, money has been flowing out of my pocket like water to the drain.......
But its no choice. Its for all the camps that I wanna go!
money money money money...... >.>

You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Got this from colorgenics. Been doing it once every month, quite true actually. It never got me wrong before.

I can take charge. IF you'd let me.

Why bother

Suppressing

Things arent getting better.
And everytime when I think that its fine and I can live with it, it slaps punches me back in the face.
Hard.
I don't get why it is so difficult. I guess some things are just meant to be that way.
Don't be a bother when you don't bother. I won't.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. Can I?
Hate being left behind

Laziness

I realise I can't remember things well. Dates, events, or even things that I was told.
So if i DO remember something, anything about you, be honored =)
Though theres not much that I do remember........

and I know I never will be good enough for her. -obviously-