Dreamerz

11/11/11

2011-11-11T23:34:00.004+08:00

Wow, been a while since I was here.

Its 11.11.11 today, anybody think its special? No offense but i think its just a cool number. Everyday should be a special day dontcha think?

Poly 50 on wed! SPA got 9th, 7th and 3rd place! Damn awesome! But it really is depressing when almost everyone in your club achieved something but you didnt. I didnt run. Its my last year and i didnt run. I didnt realise how dissapointing that sounds until the whole thing was over. Awesomely dissapointing.

Basketball competition today.
Well, we beat all the other teams except for 2. One was my junior's team. He grew taller so I couldnt reach the ball haha. And the last team with the infinite fouls. We always had the luck of being so close but in the end it doesnt matter. In a game, its all or nothing. There is no half-assed shot. We got 4th place. So close, but still doesnt matter in the end.
Awesomely dissapointing.

Sad to say thats not all. 2 years. Things have to change.
I'll have to change it myself if it cant. Humans are selfish beings. Everything they do is for their benefit. If not, they will learn to stop doing it. Its not easy but, I guess its for the better? Is it?
Its getting harder to live without regrets.

So, 11/11/11 eh? Whats so good about you?

"What happened?"
"Life happened"

STONG for the STRONG

2011-09-21T22:25:00.006+08:00

I'm back~!
Back from STONG

Long climb and trek. Fun and quite the experience really. Yes there were hardships but ultimately I think its quite a slack climb =) Summit picture isnt really worth posting. But I guess the journey itself was worth it. Perfect example of why its about the journey, and not the destination.

Climb over huge trunks, slippery slopes, muddy ground, walk over the length of a fallen tree...

Had too make a shelter for the hammocks we sleep in. Since we're stacking hammocks above each other, the shelter must be bloody high. So I became the human ladder...
Darn it, Vincent aint that light either. Back aches~!

Theres a hole off the cliff of the waterfall. I think its a pretty good place to slack there but...
when a flash flood comes, I'd be dead.
A little drizzle on the mountain would result in a flash flood so.... haha
I like this picture! Pang looks soooo much smaller here.... oh well...Beautiful view, trust me it looks better in real life. SPA, we look forward in life....
well, except Vincent who just looks back and smile creepily...
A smaller waterfall up the mountain where we refill out bottles. Water there is drinkable and cold. The best =)
As usual, it wouldnt be SPA if there isnt some stupid shots haha
Waterfall there is bloody freezing cold.... Balls just shrank in the water to the size of marbles. Too bad we didnt have enough time to play slide off the slope.
Best shot in the KTM train. What can I say, with crazy people, a more nicer shot is practically impossible to take haha.
Well, I guess thats it for STONG? We did some caving, exploring caves and IVE BEEN TO GUA KRIS BEFORE! And psshht, leeches at Stong is small compared to the ones that ATTACKED me in my secondary school leadership camp haha. True story.

Anyways, its been quite a while. 8days plus? Its just feels different when I've never seen this Apple for so long. Just some things that no one else can do and she can do quite easily. Shes the sweetest thing on earth. Gonna run to another country with her tomorrow and 2 best buddies of mine. Well, we're gonna have a blast and no ones gonna stop us =)

Next To You

2011-07-04T12:30:00.000+08:00

You've got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.

A Smile

2011-06-17T13:18:00.009+08:00

Days been passing by too fast. Having too much fun though exams are coming. Should I be guilty?

Before anything, check this out. Hahahaha! I like the way they say its GLORIOUS! hahaha!

Brought a bunch of crazy people to PM~
First time I tried to teach a roll without the basics. Very hard... obviously? But what to do, some people dont wanna admit that they havent master the basics. Haha, everytime they (tried) to roll, I already expect them to fail. Eskimo bow rescue also not there....
Like I said, crazy =] Feels like Sports Elective cause Tzelam was there and her weird attempts to take pics haha. Sad that she'll be going back Hong Kong soon =/

Night cycling~! the other 3 spoil the boyband shot sia! haha!
Copying his trademark pose.
Was kinda fun, but i think the pace was abit too slow. Long stretches of road to speed would be nicer =)
Nice picture? Cause the photographer is awesome =)
Went to fly a kite with pretty eyes. Kinda disappointing that day, nothing went right you see. But oh well~
The kite was awesome. Its HUGE! Made me think about getting a BIGGER kite and see if it could lift me up =D But first, needa find a string that doesn't keep breaking -.-

Side-tracking : If a solar eclipse is the moon in front of the sun, Lunar eclipse means the sun goes in front of the moon?

Had a BBQ yesterday night. Shag. Went all around my condo like a ninja to find this couple.... haha! Feel like a kid though.

Do you know what I crave? I crave to have a serious conversation with you. Where I can calm my heart down enough so that I wont have to make a joke to cover up moments when I have nothing to say. Where my mind is not so cluttered so that I can just say what I really mean.
I'm imperfect.

To you~ =)

Its only words,
And words are all I have to take your heart away.

Friends

2011-06-05T00:18:00.010+08:00

PANTHERA

Dinner outing at Fish & Co with these baskets. Awesome time =]

I like it that in some ways, they can do stupid things haha. Makes sense?
There was SPAC gathering on friday. Imagine, 28 batches of adventurers in one room. Epic? Feels damn awesome when so many people with the same interest are there. All of them are the happy-go-lucky kinda people who are damn on!
SPA - Once an adventurer, forever an adventurer.

Hi, its been around 5 years? Things change, and so did you. I thought at first that it might be fine. But I guess I was naive? I don't live to please you, as a friend, I'm here. But as a friend, can you listen once in a while? You were the one who taught me a lot of things and made me who I am today. But you don't practice what you teach no more.

On a side note, I also hate it when close friends of mine say something like "I bet no one in the world would care if im gone" or anything along that lines. I'm like, "Dude, the person who will be bothered is right in front your face." But then again, it'll make me think.
Maybe to them I'm nothing?

Yeah, thats kinda the face I'd give.... http://imgfave.com/view/1387141

When you're angry, you have the right to be angry, but never the right to be cruel

SPA GRADS

2011-05-27T01:11:00.003+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'd be lying if I said graduation day doesn't matter to me this year.
Every year, even though its not me, its still sad to see people leave.

Epic expressions haha.

NJ~ It's been a short, but sweet time.
All the best in your future END DEH VOSS. Haha, doesnt matter if I don't spell it right, I bet she still wouldnt know what it means haha. Her english no power... =P

You made me smile.
No, more than that

BIA! Back-In-Action

2011-05-24T00:22:00.012+08:00

What do you think?
Personally I think its true. If its rare, its more meaningful isnt it? Just my point of view, dont need to whack my head for it!

ANYWAYSSSS
Alot of stuff been happening, and as you can see from the previous post, I'm just too lazy and tired to post properly -.-
Lets see if I even remember how to do a proper post....

Well first of all, I found out again that really, alot of people are stalking me haha. I'm talking about you who read this. See my Cbox on the right? ITS DEAD! And I totally dont give a damn, so i thought no one's reading. Then slowly, one by one people complain I dont update haha. Its like 30+ people please! Can make a class! When I blog, like no one read. Ass-es....

Theres this gym in the CLS block which is generally out of bounds. State of the art equipments. Ever seen a guy with respirator running on treadmill? Yeahh, as cheem as that. Well, now I'm allowed to! Selected people only kkay! Technically, our own personal GYM!
Check out Thunder and Lightning AHAHAHA!
Going there tomorrow, every tuesday. Kenny is supposed to be our instructor assigned, but we're already veterans in the gym haha! Imagine his face when we told him we dont usually have breaks in between sets.... Sorry, gym-junkie talking here. xD

JUST RECENTLY!
Freshman Oreiantation Camp Outing~! AWESOME!
But then again, expected haha. The camp is awesome, the people are awesome, so what else do you expect?

If you missed it, (like Carin) this are some of the thing you missed haha!
Pardon my expression, we were trying to do a 4-man-tall structure! This was one of the successful ones! Our camera-woman damn lousy! Haha kidding, she took the picture but never tell us, then the people carrying the heavy load get tired while waiting for her....
Can you imagine there were people who waited for us, and took pictures of us while we were doing this. HAHA! Me and some of the guys at the base were shouting "ALL IS WELL!" again and again cause its actually quite heavy. Everyboday began to chant the same thing, and..... yeah... attract too much attention? haha! My back and neck kinda ache after that =/

Apparently no one can do this, other than me haha! Kenny tried, but not stable (I think I know too many "Kenny"s) Check out Fauzi's face.
NONOGAN! Talk so much, sure kena throw in the water la... They threw me in the water when I just came down too, hence no pics hahaha!
Our lousy camera-woman! My hair like James Bond sio... hahaha!
I think this pic is kinda awesome!
Throwing Raja in, I heard from Amman that he takes 2 hours to get ready, 1 to bathe and 1 to change i guess....? Like girl sia... haha!

I got awesome juniors ;D
Amman, helped me jailbreak my phone and taught me everything there is to know!
Free service, with a smile =D
Shronn, was on msn with her last night at like 1am? She can make me laugh at my screen haha! Somehow when I talk to her I feel like a girl xD Long story. But of course, in real life, she'd be the one who cant stop laughing ;D I'm just too pro~ Dragonboat girl, and Glen's brother's friend lol. Small world.
Ahh! Carin! Shes cute, I'd give that to her but she self praise alot! Found out shes in basketball too, but totally cannot tell by her looks haha.

Getting my virgin Polaroid picture this thurs! At least I hope =X I heard the films are expensive..... Guess I gotta practice smiling at the mirror before thursday cause there's no second try! =/

Made 2 new friends today lol! Nicole, she's Jondave's church friend. Apparently according to her, I'll be a good base for cheerleading cause my shoulders are broad and I got the strength ^^
Yes, I look like this
Easier for people to step on -.-"

The other person is the aunty cleaning the basketball court and stadium. Haha weird right? I had 2 hours to kill, so i got 2 breads and went to the stadium. After too many pull ups, I sat down watching the field eating bread (damn no life i know -.-) She came and was like...

Aunty : You eat uh? Eaat gooooood? (haha yes she talked like that)
Me : yeah, haha
Aunty : Yaa.... goooood....
Me : aha... yeah....
Aunty : Eat goooood!
Me : *offer her the other bread* you want one?
Aunty : *points to the bin* You eat uhh. Eatt good gooooood (I'm guessing she's asking me to throw away the rubbish hahaha)
Me : OHH! yeah! Okay!

haha! epic seriously. I gave her the other bread in the end haha. She sat with me and told me about her daily job lol. How did we communicate? Apparently she knows malay HAHAHA!
Yes, shes chinese.

Oh gosh, its 2am!
Gym at 8 tmr! Die...

P.S. My hair is epic now ;D

And I thank you for
the love you gave to me
Gone so young - Amber Pacific

2011-05-18T00:03:00.005+08:00

SPA FOC 2011! Biggest success! It was not only great, it was AWESOME! BEST FOC I've been to so far. Really proud of the com members. =]
Too lazy to type anymore lol

Check out the sleeve, I think my name is abit small =(

ELBRUS! BEST. GROUP, EVARRR!!!
As usual, stupid stuff we do =]

Well, what else is there to say? FOC 2011 deserves a handstand too =]

Reality check

2011-05-01T23:21:00.010+08:00

The picture really doesnt show how high it is... lol

LOADS of things going on so far. Wish I could take photos to keep them. Been here, there, everywhere. Worked as security, even recommended as bouncer! haha! One of the reasons why I want an iphone, to take a picture of everyday =]

Feels like I'm rushing everything, but I'm not. I'm just going to where I wanna be. As simple as that. Only now that I understand his words, his regret,"If you want anything, don't wait for anyone. If you wait, nothing will happen."

I have a band around my ankle to remind me to care about others even when no one cares about what I'm doing. Suggested by a friend of mine who knew I would forget things easily. But once in a while, I need to care for myself for abit.

I don't give a damn about what I post here no more. Cause I know no ones reading it.

And tmr, I'll be fine

Home

2011-04-14T20:45:00.002+08:00

Gonna sleep over at WV tomorrow, and at ubin the next day.
Adventure, its my escape.

She has the most beautiful eyes. She's sweet, funny, and very very caring.
The whole room lights up when she smiles. Its just one in a million. She's always there for me.
Even as she days go by, her love for me never wanes.
Thanks, mum.

Outdoors

2011-04-11T21:52:00.005+08:00

Lets see...
CCI Camp~
Actually was kinda hilarious. I remember the role plays and how the Fags (facs) act as little devils. Plucking and licking leg hairs. Haha! My mouth got cramp from laughing so hard =]

PENGARANG!!
Another trip where my mouth cramp cause of laughing so much =]
The best expedition from SPA so far cause we were there as year 3s, I think purely to enjoy!
Really looking forward to the next one. FOC's next most prob. Hohoho....

Epic photo with epic people.....
Saw a lot of dead bodies on the road.
Snake, cat, squirrel, tortoise, bird. Enough to make you queasy.
We sat on the roof of the hotel that night. The view is different from in Singapore. Stars are much more brighter and more in numbers. Its these things that I wish you could see with your own eyes.
Limitless~
Watched Limitless one of the days with Pat, Stacy and Alice =P
Damn cool movie. RECOMMENDED, 4 stars. The last part is damn cool. Made me wonder if there was such a drug and all the possibilities it could bring. If I was him, I would take it, and find a way to stop taking it but still get its effects. What would happen to everyone if we ALL had that drug?

Wonder. Wander.
Ever thought of what you wanna be when you grow up? When you graduate? Your dreams?
How do you get there? What are you doing now? Is what you doing help to get you to where you wanna go? Why not quit school and just go straight to whatever you wanna do? Do you even think what you are learning will have anything to do with your future? Will you even remember what you learnt?

Okay, been really busy to update about everything. My sleeping time is shrinking. Jezi bday cum end of ITP party tmr night. Presentation the next day. Hope I can wake up sia... Hope I can even present! Expedition end of the week. Looking forward to it still =] esp the night there!

I learn to live life without regrets.

You intrigue me....
You say you're okay, but your voice quivers.
You smile, but tears run down your face.

See all my photos on this blog =] Click here bodoh!

P.S. I don't like Mac Donalds....

Never say never

2011-03-29T21:05:00.010+08:00

Well, I believe its true =]

Sorry for the lack of updates, busy day and night!

ITP
Sembawang is practically my second home! Everyone in the Shipyard has a bike to travel around the compound. But we 3 musketeers dont! Whats more is that our E&I department is the furthest one! Morning needa walk to work, the walk to canteen for lunch, walk back, then walk home. Training uh haha! Went to WV Semb, really miss that place. Saw baby! woo!! Shes so patient with me haha! She like totally waited for me for 3-4 months? Awesome (Y) Corsica you're the best HA HA!

Zul bought a marshmallow cake to work today! DAMN SWEET! It tastes like Cotton Candy in cake form! More concentrated uh. Very sweet, nobody wanted to eat cause they all scared they get diabetes..... So more for me mwahahahaa!

HANDOVER! It deserves a Handstand =]
Honestly its friggin awesome. The juniors planned it very very very well. To me its the best handover that I've been to! Makes me look forward to the camps they plan.... Year 3 now, can relax.... maybe bring a kite to Pulau Hantu? Fishing!

I think this pic gt alot of extras... haha!
Got a photo with the VP! I think she's the best choice for that position seriously. How I know? I voted her la! LOL. She gets along well with both sides, cares for both alot and really think for the club. Hope someone can talk some sense into her so that she can be more confident haha!

NIGHT LIFE
Basically been out with Geraldine. Shes damn epic. She called me out. Then I ended work early so I met her with her friend, Rose. SHE DRIVES DAMMIT. HAHA! I felt like a kid the whole journey! She brought me to this place Ive never been. Its a dam, the view at night is just plain awesome..... We went makan at Newton food court? Dunno where uhh, but they got recommendations there. Tried all the best food there! Awesome. And to keep my manly pride, I treat them dinner =]

Oh, and I officially have a new record of the strangest way to make a new friend. I met Cynthia because of ice cream. Those who know the story shaddup. Those who don't, ASK ME! Haha seriously epic.
All the best at KL =]

Looking forward to Cheers camp, Expedition, my soveniers, and Post ITP PARTY(Jezi's Bday)! Seriously gonna be awesome! Live like theres no tomorrow.
Oh and I'm keeping another name for facebook cause i needa keep out of radar for now =] Camps and clubs. First thing they ask is, "Do you have facebook?" WTFAG???

P.S. Waiting for my ITP kaching next monday and Jr, here I come!!!

yo te voy amar

Grow up

2011-03-21T21:15:00.008+08:00

I'm getting the hang of ITP. Actually I'm learning quite alot from ITP. Like they say, if you want anything, you have to take the first step. I did 6man job myself!

To that basket.
WHO ASK YOU TO DO WHAT YOU DID. GROW UP MAN. Small things you say, but who's gonna bail you out? Cant tell you parents or you'll die. I bet even your girlfriend doesn't know. Dude, you know you're gonna have a record for this duntcha? Told you to stop the habit. You'll have alot to loose. Maybe now, you'll quit. No point nagging if you don't listen, but I gotta at least let this out.

Was reminded that you cant remain childish forever. Have to bail one of my friends out. Its not the money thats the problem. Fuck, a record lehhh.
In the end, the ones you can turn to are your friends.

Speaking of which, Elaine got me an icecream cake for supper yesterday! Totally can see that they're trying to make me fat and eat me =] THANKS AGAIN. Me and Max tested our strength at the fitness corner. I admit, both of us improved quite alot. Perseverance. Doesnt matter if you walk or run. The destination will still be the same =]

Going out with these rich ass people is crazy. Few nights ago we went to Hometeam NS to play golf? HAHA damn random. Okay, I'm pretty bad at golf so bear with me here. We played the kind where you just hit the balls into the open space? Yeah, First few shots we just anyhow hit haha. Max tried to play baseball... But overall, spending time with them, cool night breeze. The best (Y)

Everything is on track.
Been trying to do good deeds lately. The most epic was of course helping the old lady (prev. post) but thats not the only one =] Kinda make you feel good when you make someone smile. 2 Years ago my new year resolution was to make at least one person to smile each day. Don't know what happened to it though haha. Cause I believe, whats inside will show on the outside =]
Ever seen Shrek?

Small girl coming home tonight!

A smile a day =]

2011-03-20T00:50:00.011+08:00

This song never fails to keep me going. =]

Success!
After so many tries! What am I talking about? Our song =] Still haven't think of the title yet. Maybe will tweak it more =] BUT ITS AWESOME! Cloud 9 baby. When its done, the whole world will know. Sense of accomplishment! Next would be the studio...

Recently, I helped this woman to carry her groceries up to her house. She was fumbling with it near the market in front of WCPlaza. I asked if I could help. She thanked me once. When I carried it, she thanked me all the way to her house 2 blocks away haha epic! =] When I reached her house, guess who I saw..... EVE! haha~! Apparently it was her granny's house. Damn small world!

Oh, oh. Who's Eve? I met her a long time ago, at the void deck of my old house. She was playing with my brother outside the kindergarten classroom. Haha naturally, I joined them. I didnt like her at first. STINGY!!!!! She dun let me play her yoyo =( She kept outcasting herself. So, one time she was running, she fell. Scratched her knee. Coincidentally I got a plaster. Her mum asked her to thank me, she did, but her face like not happy. The NEXT day, when I send my bro again, she came over, sat beside me and gave me a "Thank You" card. SWEET RIGHTTTT haha. Ever since then she stuck to me like magnet haha. I had her picture, cause she was damn cute. But think I lost it. Dang, memories.
She's 7-8 years old now =]

Just read something that made me think about 2012 again. Doesn't affect me that much now though. No regrets. I only have one. Live life to the fullest. Its already brimming =] Everyone has their own way to do that. Their own interest. Their own beliefs. Some live recklessly, drink drank drunk. Some dedicate their time for a sport.

Me? Simple.

Freedom with no boundaries.
Why go with the crowd? I never did want to follow them. Sometimes, I just hitch a ride to get to where I wanna go, but never stay for long. Its all about freedom. Parkour, stunting, BD, kayaking, making music, flying a kite. Simple things that you never think of. Why? cause you follow the crowd =]

Life, Love, Laughter.
Simple things in life needed to live. Food, water, and warmth is not what you need to live, but merely to survive. Enjoy every single minute. A good friend once told me, "Never get tired of life. Do what you want, go out, have fun, live loud, just run. When you're dead, you can sleep peacefully all you want." Really motivated me =] But life's too hard to enjoy you say? You're missing the little things in front of you. How did I find it? Through kayaking =] I know alot of people who share the same thinking. Kayaking in the rain, so close to the water that you can see the droplets. Going to deserted islands, beautiful beaches and just slacking there eating lunch.
Spending time with a good friend flying a big big big kite, or eating supper late in the morning, or just eating icecream at a playground! Just awesome...

Hmm....
Lately theres this girl who confessed to me. Long story, but after I totally rejected her in the most epic way possible, she told me she has like 2-3 guys chasing her trying to please her. Describing what she wear when she sees them. Telling me how impossible her situation is. How she is damn good in this. Damn good in that. Asked to be a model. Basically trying to make me jealous.

Girl, all you're doing is putting yourself down. Yes you are pretty. Yes you have alot of guys after you. But with that attitude?
I believe, if you ever wanna make the guy jealous, just be yourself and tell him he can never get you. Thats the truth, frank, and more respectful. Trust me. Losing you would be worse than losing the attractiveness that you are trying to show.

Yet to find someone to go Redang with me though. Okay, scratch that. Yet to find someone who will plan with me haha!
Theres that, and slack lining! Gonna get it soon....
And of course, a revamped guitar ;)

P.S. Sorry for the wordy posts =]
P.P.S. The moon was beautiful tonight, and I wasnt the only one who was amazed by it! =D

Flickaday. Should I?

BREAKKK

2011-03-18T23:30:00.005+08:00

Lucky that small girl in china... if not she sure will say sumthin haha...

WEEKENDS!
Finally a break. ITP everyday at 5am. Seriously??
But after 2 weeks i think I'm getting the hang of it.
Every morning get some chocolate and sweet stuff to get me sugar rush. 3pm sharp I'll be shag already haha!
Colleages bringing me to club i think. Forgot wad its called haha. Gonna be damn awesome =]
Celebrate one of their birthdays. They celebrate once every 3 months haha! Epic sia! Apparently Afiz's bro is a bartender at MBS. Can get a big room which costs $450 at just $150 ;D Soon =P

Ah, so many things to do,

Geraldine owes me some dinner somewhere.
Hanwei swimming tmr. Nabei ask me wake up so early again...
Pat recording at his hse.
Myrah selling bras.
Repair my guitar.
Register N.V.M.
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

Been going out after ITP haha, I know its crazy but thats the time I have. No matter how tired haha! Watched RANGO!

Seriously damn nice! Didnt expect to laugh as loud as Geraldine! (She very noisy in movies oneee) But its funny! haha! I thought its like a kids show... so I was more pessimistic.... but its really funny =] Recogmended =]

Woo, juz got a compliment =] OHH! YILIN GOT ME THIS SUPER NICE THUMBDRIVE! Its damn cool! Will take photo of it in higher quality next time haha. AND I GOT THIS SUPER COOL CUFF LINKS FROM TWIN! Now I just need a blazer =]

Sidenote, FOC and camps coming. Gonna crash it as usual =] Start of the year. Lets make it epic again ;D This pic is the pyjamas EEE cum formal CLS disco haha!!

Been making covers, lepak-ing with people i never thought could lepak! haha. Making my song! Training, stunt-ing, USS! =D Catching up with people is getting harder cause theres alot of people to catch up with! haha. Oh banana, Keryn's birthday today! Die.

That little bugger's words still in my mind. From like what, 2-3 weeks ago?
"She's your first, while you're her... what, 8th? She already learned how to deal with it. Its normal if you don't."

Hi, guess what.
i miss you

Awesome

2011-03-06T10:32:00.005+08:00

No stunt doubles haha

Thanks for the wishes the presents and the everything =]
Appreciate every tiny thing =] 2Days very tiring haha. Cant think straight now. Gotta sleep. Or else I die....

Btw, people going off for OITP, holidays or LTC, all the best. I look out for my bros too okay~
Side note: HW's mum and sister rmbed me when I sent him off! The last time i talked to his sister when she was in pri sch, I made her cry! HAHA! Now shes in sec sch =]

Daniel - Ireland (6weeks)
Jameston - Ireland (6weeks)
Jonathan - China (6weeks)
Han Wei - India (1 more week)
Joanne - Vietnam (6weeks)
Olga - Perth (20march)
Vincent - China( 10th-21st)
Yuduan - China(10th-21st)
B2 - (she just cheated me)

Recently, a group of gang members asked me to join their gang. Kinda funny, cause they empty threats. Just like firing an empty bullet. Dumb -.- Thing is, they think they're all big and all, but all they do is stare. I'm like... whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

And how can I forget, this stupid thing. Epic man. The view from up there is really something. I felt like spiderman in the scene where he had to save a bus of kids or Mary Jane haha! Should take the view from up there better... oh well, another day. These is the second video that I will remember for life (Y) haha
(ahh fuck la video another day)

Got a personal project with some people ^^ Give you a clue, this is my mini studio at home haha. Goin pat's house to do the other part. AWESOMENESS!

Gonna go bunjee jumping with the third BOZO behind me ^^ AWESOME AWESOME! And Gymnasium too!

Tomorrow will be a hi-im-the-new-intern day. So screwed, didnt print my letter. HAHA DIE, on first day die already. WOO! DIE DIE DIE! I'm such an optimist! DIE haha! MATI! WOO!

Okay, many more things happening, calender full, but thats for another day =]
On another note, found out Shirlyn lives near me =] THATS JUST FRUGGIN AWESOME!

No more games girl
All you did was bring down your image =/

Do you know what it feels like

2011-02-28T23:47:00.005+08:00

I don't know... Every part of you wants to see her. To be with her. To comfort her. And only her. You want to do anything physically possible to make sure that she's the happiest girl in the entire world and you'd do anything to make her that way. You can't stop thinking about her even if you wanted to, which you don't because it feels too good to do so. This leads to not being able to sleep, eat or dream correctly because she fills you with butterflies. When you do get to see her, your day instantly brightens up and you have a hard time concentrating on anything else. She makes you feel like life's absolutely worth living and she gives you a reason to smile day after day. There's no feeling in the world that comes remotely close to it.

Niceeee,
If you didnt know by now, I'm a guy who loves the water =]

I'm so looking forward to after exams. So many things cramped but its soooo gonna be awesome. I didnt even realised today was a monday, the whole day I thought today was a thursday haha. Guess thats how bad I REALLY want the exams to be over =] So many things to do, so little time.

Gha's circle of friends is like so huge, that he can never be alone. He's not the kind of guy who would be alone at any given time. If he's alone, hes either finding a friend, or waiting for one. RARE!
-Max

Awesomeness quoted by Max. Quite true, haha. Sleepy, Wish me luck for BMRENG, think I'm gonna need it =S

When life gives you lemons, make apple juice.

I feel free.

2011-02-26T11:23:00.017+08:00

No one can change a person, but a person can be the reason someone changes-
Spongebob

The Guardian

2011-02-25T10:21:00.005+08:00

Take the risk...
Note to self: gonna take a pic of me doing backflip....

Just realised the year 3's are graduating soon. Sad... They always know the right things to say. Even though we're just court buddies lol. Just realised Li Ming is the SD club President. I realise I know quite alot of high ranking people lol. Though they're all goons... haha like me =P

I've always wanted a life like F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Dontcha think they're so awesome? Everywhere they turn, theres someone there for them. And everyday is awesome lol. Unconciously I Kept trying to look out for people, seeing if they can join this group. But it always seem like falling apart whenever I try to hold it together.

Then BAM, guess what. They were here all the while =] Right infront of me haha. Can't believe how far I had to fall to see it. Actually they don't really know each other, but they all don't mind to get out together with me to go crazy haha! Damn epic. I believe they don't know this site... but with them... nothing will stay certain haha! Thanks babes and hunks =]

Cause a letter filled with feelings is worth more than any gift you can give me

With Gha, you need to keep up ;)

To you,
I'm human too. You treat me like trash when you're dissapointed at the slightest things. Even I apologise. Do you? You're underestimating me.

I won't let go.
Don't you.

Exams

2011-02-18T22:25:00.004+08:00

DAMN CUTE RIGHTTTT.

Exams coming, but I just realised a few things.

I'm seriously very childish o.o
Toys for valentines day and I'm already throwing my books to play with it LOL.
Got this really cool nerf gun thing, that I'm currently fighting my bros for a chance to play with it lol. They ALREADY lost 2 bullets WTF. And I jingled all around school yesterday with this stuffed dog with a bell around its neck. Stares everywhere lol. Took off the bell to stop the noise =X

GHA ONLY KNOWS HOW TO ENJOY LIFE.
Bioengineering. Totally not my thing. Seriously. What am I doing if I'm just studying about things I will never use in the future? My future is totally uncertain. I realllyyyyyyyyyyy dunno what I'm gonna do. But.... I know I'm gonna enjoy every moment of the day =]

Oh, cmon. Not the first day you know me!

Head down low

2011-02-18T22:12:00.003+08:00

Funny how a simple song can bring me down to the streets.

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
Been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let's not pretend that you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Cause somethings will never change.

Peeks

2011-02-05T18:48:00.005+08:00

We cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. Do what it takes to be a human. Have a heart, Care, think about others.

Inspired by the song haha, a guy cant do everything right?

Been busy and tired these past few days. Its not that I dun wanna blog, I'm just too tired. =]
Gha is currently under reconstruction =] Body and soul~ Sad thing is that exams are nearing....

Bomb squad

Adventure

2011-01-30T10:18:00.005+08:00

One day.

Nothing short of awesome. Whenever theres kids I'm always the first one being placed there, I dont know why lol. Elaine's neighbours were invited over and their kids were so cute! I think they think of me as a big playground haha. BUT kids never understand when its time to leave. Its like, we took away their favourite stuff toy or something. What up with that?? lol. Kinda makes me feel guilty, but they gotta learn life ;D THANKS FOR THE BBQ ELAINE! Thanks for everything =]

Sweet feeling when you have friends everywhere for you (Y)

Honestly, training is a happy word for me. Doing drop-weights till you cant carry no more. Perfect you forms doing rolls. Running by everyone. Doing tricks flippin all around with cheers all around you if you did it right. I get this adrenaline feeling.
Yes, I'm an adrenaline junkie (Y)

The only problem was motivation. Being a year 2 now, theres no coach to shout, no seniors to encourage. Haha, but strangely I got the motivation now. Watch this space. Cause I don't join the rat race =]

OH, and a side note. Found a bunch of tricksters. Small world really, apparently one of them knows me as the guy who went to his programming class but is absent most of the time. Haha, I cant really remember faces. Just feelings =] He thought me how to do the front flip. Generally, people cant/don't do it cause of fear. Once thats gone, its as easy as trying to ride a bike.
hoo hoo flash kicks next....

If you see me, ask me to show you how to do it xP

When there is no place left to venture in this world, all thats left is to go past the concrete walls (parkour)

Pure Lyrics

2011-01-29T17:08:00.003+08:00

Nothing really matters, nothing really matters at all
When all your dreams are shattered, everything is beautiful
Nothing ever happens, they think we waste our lives but they're wrong,
we're moving on

(Everybody knows) you know the ships going down

I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show :)

Just a fool

2011-01-27T23:12:00.004+08:00

Remember that time when we argued about who loves who more? I guess I won...

Free hug event~!

2011-01-26T23:55:00.002+08:00

It remains to be true =] Fill you brain with memories

Totally epic! In every sense of that word!
My peeps who were supposed to come ALL never come. Only Jonathan and Patrick came. But they were TOTALLY unsupportive haha. Doing crazy things like this, haha even I need a little encouragement. They totally screw my brains inside out! Lucky I found a friend who willingly gave me a hug first. And I was set all the way ;D

My first sign was actually "Free Hugs!" But after going all the way to FC6, getting around 10 hugs, being called gay by one guy didnt really matter lol. (Besides, I could've split his head any day) lol. Met Geraldine at FC6 and she joined us. Jon gave me another idea so I rewrote my sign to become.....

"My life SUCK, HUG me!" with a tiny "pls..." at the bottom haha. More success with that sign! The guys hugging me were giving me the "Yeah-i-know-how-you're-feeling-bro" pity look whenever they walk to me haha. Got a GIGANTIC hug from this big guy at FC5, I actually jumped on another guy to hug him at FC5, and I carried this guy at the library while hugging him. LOL somehow this sounds so gay....

Geraldine's camera is so pro! Can hide pimples! Naturally used it to cam-gigolo lol. Pics soon, damn nice (Y)

Moving on to the next event tomorrow (which is technically today...) POOL TRAINING! woo! Don't care, gonna try to fit in the playboat this time~!

30+ hugs, but this event was to actually get just that one =]

I cant make her care no more, I cant make her heart stop, I cant make her feel like a princess, I guess I was never good enough, waking up earlier and sleeping later. As long as I can still be there, I'm happy
Still get butterflies too @.@

My toe is still busted =/

Pretty eyes

2011-01-24T23:42:00.006+08:00

you and your pretty eyes
you keep me alive

Past few days been different. More active haha.
Always been wanting to blog, but now too lazy....
Flippin all over the place during the last SE class. Videos and pics on facebook! Go see my almost completed backflip! (Y)

After tomorrow, I'm gonna look forward to every day!
Wednesday, theres my event.
Thursday, pool training!
Friday, going to a gymnastics club for parkour!

One handstands, backflips, no-hand cartwheels here I come.... hohoho...
Dont know why people call it monkeying around, its so damn cool! One day, you'll be jealous....

But then again, theres always something bad. Tomorrow is math till 10pm. I have 6 papers for exam.... Don't know why everyone has only 2 or 4. Haven made my IC, apparently theres a deadline... WHYYY MEEEEEE.

Come to think of it, I havent seen my dad in a long time...

Forelsket, what to do.

I promised I'd do all I can

2011-01-21T23:53:00.004+08:00

Something cool to listen to, "Made" by Dub FX

Went to the Poetry Slam thing today. Actually poets are quite cool. They can bring out emotions. They can make you feel sad, happy, angry, anything they want you to feel. Makes you think too. They use alot of good phrases too like,

"If you don't want to work, you will have to earn enough money so that you won't have to work".

or this,

"Don't regret anything if you gave your all"

Free food after it ended too. Brownies and Pie Kia ^^

Something happened today that made my day.

So I was like sitting there with Jon and 2 girls who were patiently waiting for their boyfriends who were playing bball. I say patiently cause even I think that it took too long for the boys to end their game, but the girls still waited. So happens that one of the girls knew a dancesport member and actually wanted to join, but her boyfriend didnt let her.

All I told them was the reason why I joined dancesport and they were telling me how jealous they were. One of them told me "If only my boyfriend was like you." Obviously her boyfriend got jealous of me later. They told me it was really a sweet thing to do. They even told me "You confirm got alot of girls wanna dance with you" haha.

I finally felt appreciated =]
See, when life hit an all time low, the only place left to go is UP =)

I wanna get another guitar soon. Got a software to compose my own song =D

Found my BEATZ

2011-01-20T14:52:00.003+08:00

"So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away."
-Jason Mraz-

Hoo hooo.... abit high. Helped 3 people in need today. A friend in need is a friend indeed. Maybe they'll be my friends lol.
Pool training! Start soon! Sports elective last day this sat! WOOOO! lol.
The last time it Sports elective kayaking ended, it became like this,

To this,

And this.....
To this.....Cause thats life, it will always try to pinch you in the nipple ;D

I don't understand your huge ego, wanna shrink it down a little?
Like a good fiend of mine once said, "Expectation will never meet the lines of reality" =]

No regrets

2011-01-19T21:13:00.004+08:00

Its another 19 today.
Marks 9 month of me loving her. Yeah I may not be the best guy, but I know I loved her with everything I could. At least all that I know. Haha reminded of an epic moment that I actually impressed a random aunty beside us while we were eating at Carousel for her birthday. The aunty was impressed with the necklace I gave her. Ohhh yeeeaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh.

Happy anniversary, to my heart. Its not with me.
Not the first day you know me, "Good morning, I'm Gha" =]

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your okay
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

2011-01-17T09:05:00.005+08:00

She never did understand, I knew who the people were.
When it comes to me, its wrong but when she does the same thing, shes right.
I guess I cared too much for someone who cared too much about herself.

Someday...

Between the lines

2011-01-15T20:43:00.007+08:00

Between the lines of fear and blame.

Guess its true the days keeps on getting worse. Damn I wished for brighter days.
Lucky it rained after the race. I love the rain. I just like its presence. Seem to wash away everything.

I know guys are supposed to shed blood. But I already did, so am I excused?
Doesnt matter. I'm just confused. Should I tell you? Or just move on when I gave everything and I was just brushed away so easily with a short sentence. You tell me I should understand and give in more, when I'm already at my limit.
I don't need fake concerns. Dissapointed, maybe its my fault. Of course it is.

I wish tomorrow will be a better day. I'll keep wishing. Even if it doesnt comes or I dont believe in it.
My feet is pale with blisters. My shoe has a big hole at the bottom. No glue. Wallet missing. Broke. Knuckles skinless. Wrist sprained.
It cant get any worse... right?

Haha it was a fun race. Not as good as last years though. I'm kinda hungry, wanna eat, eat, eat.
Tomorrow will be great =] Shes happy, I'm happy. We are all happy peopleeee =P

Paper bags and plastic hearts

Dammit, I hate this feeling

2011-01-14T11:10:00.007+08:00

Between the lines.

You can either see that roses has thorns, or that thorns have roses.
Its all about me? It never was. But theres no point explaining.
See, wishes never come true.

Solitary, you don't know the meaning of that word.
Pms-ing freak , haha

This world will never be what i expected

2011-01-11T01:43:00.003+08:00

I wish it was different
I wish you would listen
I wish you would notice
I wish you wouldnt blame me so much
I wish you could understand
I wish you could see how much I lost
I wish I could tell you that I'm not the only one always at wrong
I wish I wasnt taken for granted
I wish you could see the things I did, and not what I didnt

Its just a wish, not like it will be granted. Cause I don't believe in fairy tales.
Would you rather be a beggar with no money, or be someone who has money, but all his friends avoid him as he never keeps to his word? There would be nothing left. Time, friends, dreams, aspiration or something to look forward to. Its just like an empty shell braving the weather.
Yeah, I know I used to say I go wherever the river takes me. But only the dead follows the currents.

What am I fighting for?
(and you would ask, " Are you even fighting?")

Average Joe

2011-01-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

Cant seem to do anything right.

I don't seem to be good in anything. Average Joe? I don't wanna be one. Tried from sports to arts. They were fun but 3 years later, I still can't find something I'm good at.
Maybe I just try to act smart sometimes. A little knowledgeable. Not just a goof monkeying around. But it doesn't really work. You can't hide the fact that I'm not really good at it. I'm not getting anywhere.

Stagnant waters. Its been 3-4 months? If I'm not wrong. No improvement anywhere. No enlightenment. No life. 2011 is a new year. I really don't wanna waste my time anymore.
Gotta find something I'm good at and go all the way.

For now, no such luck...

2011

2011-01-01T22:05:00.003+08:00

Hey 2010.
The good, the bad, the worst. Tried and learnt a few things. What can I say? You were awesome. Everytime I look back, all I can remember are the great times. Maybe a little embarrassing. Maybe thats the way it should be. Memories shouldnt hurt.

Speaking of pain....
I had a habit of putting my leg in front of anything I don't want to let roll down a slope. Lets say Theres a ball rolling down a slope. I'd put my leg in front of it so it stops rolling.
Makes sense right?

Well.... Not if its a go-kart that is rolling down the slope. My kart was stalled as it went up a slope. I stupidly went out to find a mechanic. Realised it was rolling down and placed my leg in front of it. Felt like someone breaking my bone SLOWLY. It wasnt like a hammer, cause it was slow but heavy.
Ouch.

Hi 2011.
Nice meeting you. Hope things will get better and that I get to pass everything I take! All the courses, the attachments and liscences. And of course, money please! I'll be good....

Sometimes I wish someone would record the best points of my life and show me at the end of every year. Wouldnt that be good?

Some love to hate and some love to lie

If anyone cared

2010-12-31T01:25:00.000+08:00

To be understanding is more important than to be right.

Nice one VP.

Kappish?

2010-12-24T09:03:00.001+08:00

I should get a medal for going through that.
And through every lesson.

Nope, I don't believe in santa.

-Sealed-

2010-12-21T23:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just wish someone understands.

Say what you need to say.

2010-12-20T23:53:00.005+08:00

"Send someone to love me,
I need to rest in arms
keep me safe from harm
in pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing, all I can

To be a better man"

Mind's cluttered with words.
Speech stunned by the exit of all the things needed to be said.
I know I have my reasons, I know I did try, and am still trying my best.
Say what you need to say

Hear me out? No. Not needed. No explanation or excuses necessary.
Cause it won't be heard. Cause it won't change anything.

But one thing's for sure, you have no idea.

"Go easy on my conscience
Cause its not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame"

AX overrrr!!!!!!

2010-12-18T22:11:00.005+08:00

Lack of sleep, kinda common nowadays.

Back from AX. Actually kinda disappointed that they're getting less torturous treatment than us. Though I think they're kinda suay with the worst luck of all. Rain, pain, faint. Haha kinda rhymes. But they do have initiative to do some things themselves. Can't compare though.

Damn shiok sleeping in hammock. Either that or cause I really lack of sleep. I hope its not the latter. Cool wind, kinda learnt sumthin about predicting the weather.

Gonna get rock shoes but there's $0 in my acc. Damn, money money money. Loosing it while my other half is gaining it lol.

Its not easy to be me

Confusing world

2010-12-05T10:35:00.003+08:00

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Pardon the giberish. Thats what happens when you faceplant on your keyboard after realising your stupid mistake. Thought I had expedition today, found out it was next week. By then I was half way to sembawang already. And I was soooo looking forward to it =(

Today, other than learning that my nose covers 3x3 keys on the keyboard, I realise that the world is a confusing place to be in. Ever heard of the story of the Cow, Old Man and his Son?

They were on their way to the market and they met certain people who said certain things.
Man1 : The man is old, we should respect the elders and let him sit on the cow.
The old man sat on the cow and continue their journey.
Man2: The boy is so young, he gets tired easily, you should let him sit on the cow.
They complied and continue their journey.
Man3: You shouldnt sit on that poor animal! thats animal abuse!

See, different people have different views. And its so confusing! Everyone knows the saying "Ladies first", then no one disagrees when they hear that "Men should lead the way"
How do I solve the problem? Easy. What are we talking about again?

On a side note, everyone knows how to count their ten fingers, but I know 3 ways to count my fingers up to eleven =]

MST screwed?

Another Quiet night

2010-12-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

Unconsciously we do that don't we?

Scroll up and play the song I heard. Actually by Michael Jackson. Realise his songs is always meaningful (maybe other than about Billy Jean). I guess no one can do what he does.
Well, maybe just his moonwalk.

Missing the sea again. Seriously I feel more free in a kayak than walking. Thats why I'm trying to learn doing flips and handstands. Kinda give you more variety to ways you can move.
On your legs,
On your hands,
On your butt,
On your elbows?

Le Parkour. An exciting sport to learn one day. Its the closest you can feel like flying without wings (other than jumping off a building. Oh wait, it is about jumping off buildings.)
ahh... one day...

maybe I'm just searching to be free...

Singaporeans

2010-12-01T21:38:00.006+08:00

Crazy people in singapore, never learn to move in the bus. Always cramming the front. Bus was jam packed like sardines.... only at the front. At the back I still have enough space to fart and no one would know who. People ~.~

Kinda funny that I'm only updating before MST's. Yes yes people, I can see that I got fans screaming for me in my Cbox ;P

A carefree life. I guess everybody wants that, but only a handful have it. You can count on it that they are from hawaii.

After exams, front flip training, here I come

Disappointments, they seem to come after you think everything's fine

2010-09-05T12:58:00.003+08:00

Love is like flying a kite. There are times when you need to learn how to release the string and pull back with the right pressure. When the kite-flyer pulls too hard, the string will become too taut and snap.

Why would the kite-flyer pull hard at the string?

Kite-flyer wants to possess the kite. The kite-flyer refuses to let go. The kite-flyer wanted the kite to be in his/her arms only.

But the kite belonged to the sky. The kite needs its own space, its own freedom. Yet, it feels safely close to the best friend – the kite flyer, safely tagged by the string to earth.

Only the kite flyer that understands the kite most can make the kite soar and display all the beautiful colors on it

-from anonymous

True aint it?
Been wanting to fly a kite for so long. Got the string but not the kite. I wanna get the big big ones haha.
That way when I fly it, everyone will see. Anybody wanna join me? At WCP one day...
The feeling of flying a kite, its just awesome. Just like throwing a boomerang =p

Time seems to be zooming past me like in an F1 race haha. Instead of hitching a ride, I feel like playing poker cards by the side. or maybe chinese chess hehe
Gotta study. who hasn't said that?
Expectations.

Sit back, enjoy~ =]

2010-09-01T22:04:00.003+08:00

Cute aint it?
Remember when you were a kid. The world was your playground. Jump around without worries. (maybe worry that ur diapers get heavy haha)
I remember I love to climb to the highest places I can find. Above the biggest rocks, or up the highest slide.
As you get older, you get bigger, and feel as if the world is getting smaller. You start getting stuck in cubes.
(cubicle, classroom, office, car, bus, etc.)
Feeling trapped in a small place aint a good feeling, especially for a tall guy like me.
So I find the vast ocean more comforting =]

I wanna go out, see the world. It makes me realise that, we are actually very tiny in the world. If one day a tornado sucks me up in the sky, how many people's life would change? Not much compared to the billions of people who don't even know me.
I don't mind falling off a cliff high in the mountains or drowned by a huge wave. If its what I like to do then it doesn't matter. Maybe its the adrenaline rush, but when everything is silent, it all seems serene.

3star course was sweet, learnt alot. Great people, brain felt like a sponge haha. Learnt some diving too. Coaching next I guess. Even if you're aiming for the stars, but landed on the moon, why not do some zero-G backflips or sumthin to celebrate the moment =]

A successful man is one who wakes up in the morning, goes to bed at night, and does what he likes in between.

2010-08-23T23:12:00.003+08:00

Heya, thanks for dropping by =]
Guess I didnt update the blog as much as I want to
Life's been passing by me lately. I feel so busy. So screwed. So relieved. So nervous.
But then again, what have I done?

Nothing much really. Just pursuing my escape.

I hate following the crowd. Being normal. Doing the usual.
I wanna do things the unorthodox way.
I wanna see the flowers at our feet when people are looking towards the moon.
I wanna see the beauty of the world and not get stuck in the rat race.
Explains why I still balance on sidewalks.
All I need, is a friend.

3star's been great, to learn new things. The world is small indeed haha.
It seems like its the only thing that I never get tired of learning.
Getting coaching soon ;)

Been a while since I used my headphones to listen to music. Feels great hehe...

Whats that? I can't live my life that way?
Just watch me.

2010-07-26T11:31:00.006+08:00

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophesy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.

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Maybe I'm just doing these quizes to know what I want

2010-07-12T11:16:00.008+08:00

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

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It's always good to be a nice person, brings you further in life. (:

Anybody has the game "Plant VS Zombie"? I know you do, get online and send it to me!
I find it.... intriguing....

I've seen interesting/meaningful facebook status-es recently...

Never take anything in relationship for granted, don't assume what they've done for you is easy. They only did it because they love you. Learn to appreciate what your partner has done for you. If not, one will get tired easily. By then, you can't blame them when they feel like giving up.

most guys in the world are simpletons. and to those guys who agree, be glad that we are.

i still do get jealous most of the time. i just find an alternative way to get rid of that feeling.

Ok wait, these are all from guys.... hmm... lets find from girls...

if you could hear what i was actually saying or expressing, you'll be surprised at my vocabulary and expressions
Says to Edward "You have to admit, I AM hotter than you *raise eyebrows* "

haha!
Believe it or not, Gha has not played a sport for 2-3weeks? Wait, is swimming laps a sport? MAN I'm sooo deprived... Balls... I feel like a nerd lol. Going for PTN lunch later, I didnt know that 10bucks is per person. Isn't it like 3bucks per person? lol either way, I'm gonna have free pizza! woo!

Too many dramas been unfolding around lately. I ~~hate~~ dislike dramas. Its usually about 2 people who both think what they are doing is right. And mostly, (dun get me wrong here) it usually involves a girl.... true?

See, even Shakespeare said so! And he's the MOST dramatic! lol.
Seriously people should really listen to both sides of the story, and learn to give in a little. Girls, what guys do is normally because they are THINKING ABOUT YOU. No matter what it is, and no matter how bad it seems. We just think differently. Maybe too different... but thats what makes us guys right? haha.
My stomach is growling...
I wanna go Kinabalu again =/ Should have brought my own camera and got more pictures....

Damn awesome I tell you... My first LTC and the best in my life so far(Y) Even though it was freezing, hands numb, too little sleep, Acute Mountain Sickness (AMS) and whatever, its still the best. Its not how much that went wrong or was bad, but how much I learnt and experienced, and the people of course =]

Two goons.

Ebelybody

Moving on, another topic. Disasters.
oops class ended, another day then....

I wanna feel reckless,

wanna live it up just because

I wanna feel weightless,

Cause that would be enough

2010-06-15T23:42:00.001+08:00

The Fear

Always there, always have been.

2010-06-13T08:54:00.003+08:00

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

And with a knife behind his back,
he walked on in the rain. Alone again.
-Triple Threat-

I need to go scuba diving and escape the world,
I need to play a serious game of basketball so that I can think of nothing else,
I need to go gym and carry weights till I'm senseless,
I need music to create my own world,
I need someone to believe me

I don't care, I'm getting headphones...

What hurts the most

2010-06-07T22:33:00.006+08:00

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.

Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing. However it is also something that you cannot bear to lose, and as such, are trying to give whatever you have left to change. It should be known that the changes you're experiencing are extreme and your effort is recognised by many.

-Colorgenics survey-

First day of MST, SPROG
The epic subject I forward module-ed for. It seems.... pass-able...
Went to the wrong class at first, went to T1851 instead of T1551. While everyone was getting seated, realised that my name wasnt in the attendance. Didn't realise that they weren't my classmates, hehh.... No wonder the students there seem to be talking about another subject....

Today is the last paper!! WOOO! BUT, im officially broke...
What a sucky way to start my holidays. Oh well, I still can have basketball, gym, swim whatever~

Went to meet Melvin Lee Yong Hui after so long. Been a while since we catch up. Went gym-ing, then swimming. Tiring work out day. But the amount we ate seem to cover it back up lol.

Still cant do anything right.

2010-05-31T15:51:00.004+08:00

The word of the day is, PWNED

Currently: In a lecture where the teacher don't know how to teach and gives the wrong answers.
The students are the one correcting him.

GG
How to study liddat! I need to stop procrastinating! MST next week sia! And I don't know a shit about Micro Controller (MCT) Die. Any kind soul willing to teach me? Hehh, fat hope. Glucose hope. Cholesterol hope....

On a side note, 29 may, hohoho =D
New best day haha.

There goes my lecturer answering his phone... and out he goes...

I need more formal wear. Shirt, pants, shoes.
I need to cut my hair.
I need to study.
I need you.

Its not that I don't like dancing, I just don't think I can

2010-05-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

There goes my diet...

Today I found out my attendance for MCT tutorial is 1/6.
And for my D&I class which I didnt go at all, I'm suppose to invent something by now and present it to the class.
Haha, at least Jaichandar was nice enough to accept me into his class =]

Im itching all over in my fucking balcony.
I used to be used to it ._.
now it itches like banana.....

I keep wondering to myself, what can I do right?

2010-05-25T00:10:00.004+08:00

I feel stuffed in one corner. Thrown aside. As I watch everything fall apart.
Like killing a bird in my hands because i didn't do anything to care for it, and it would just fly away. Then desperate as I am to keep it from flying, I crushed it in my hands. Cruel. Painful.
Rain.

I'm doing everything halfway. Unfinished business. Maybe not to the best that I can. There's no one who is saying, "Gha, you're doing a great job! Keep it up!" No ones happy with me for the moment. No one. And I can only blame myself. Lecturers, teachers, friends, parents, you.
Neglect.
Emotionally unstable, haha sounds like dementia.
I know people get better through pressure. I know tough times don't last, tough men do. I know winners are those who stay when the going gets tough.
But can I not be that guy? I'm a simple guy, with simple desires.
Can I just ditch my job. I wanna make time.

Yeah, my life's ~~abit~~ kinda far from track. Yeah, I know the storm won't last forever.
I'm just worried what the rain would wash away...
I love her more than she will ever know
I wanna drown
Not cause she doesn't wanna know
my fears
But cause I don't know how to show it.
in music...

2010-05-24T13:49:00.000+08:00

2010-05-17T17:11:00.004+08:00

Other than my legs opening to wide and my posture.....
I think this pic is the best =D

Told you it was gonna be awesome didn't I? Huhh? Huhh? haha...
Sentosa~~ cliche~

Lucky I didn't get sunburn though I'm a bit darker....
Played soccer, volleyball, frisbee and all the stuff~ Didnt play with sand like i always do though. o.o

Haha, damn fun. Sun, sand, sea.... epic eye closed moment. 1A01, not bad....

awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome

Can you see the difference in my hair? (no, its not falling) lol
Its kinda long story but generally I asked the stylist to cut both side very short. But I only pointed on one side.
I thought it was common sense to cut both side so I assume she knew.....
She cut only ONE side shorter. And me, day dreaming away didn't notice until I left and board the bus.
ARGHHHH
One side feels cooler than the other =/

2010-05-16T00:00:00.003+08:00

BECAME AN INSTRUCTOR TODAY!
Damn fun haha. I feel so... high class =P humble humble....
Kinda fun though, few guys have 2 stars already. wooo~~~

Tomorrow is gonna be an epic-ly awesome day =D haha woo~!!
woo~!!
woo~!
woo~
woo
wo
w

._.

Haha THANKS TO JOANNE WEIJUAN AND JOEI!!!! (hope i rmb the right ppl =X)
for the belated belated bday prez!! =]

tmr tmr tmr! wooO! =DD

2010-05-12T08:53:00.004+08:00

Haha, weird expression, i like! (Y)
Its not what you do, but who you're with that matters.

Guess what, I'm on STOMP! But in an awkward position, grinding Jonathan. The cameraman cant find a better timing to take the shot.

Gotta clear my mind these few days. But its not 'bout what you think. I doubt you understand. And I don't have a reason to make you.

if you cant get someone off your mind they are probably supposed to be there

Today is gonna be a great day. Its Wednesday. Gonna find this girl who absolutely loves making my heart beat fast.

I finally understand the phrase, "Friends are like stars, you might not always see them, but you know they're always there." Complicated stuff, but now understandable. Thanks superwoman =]

Sitting next to you doing absolutely nothing, means absolutely everything to me

2010-05-07T11:20:00.004+08:00

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ON HOLD
cause my life is screwed.

somebody get me through this nightmare

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2010-05-04T23:46:00.006+08:00

I've been busy with so many things that I neglected the one person that means the most to me.
I always thought that it'd be fine and it would all come naturally to me. I guess I was wrong.
I'm sorry that I didn't show that I cared enough. I never want you to feel that way again.
I'll change

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one

2010-05-04T00:01:00.004+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY =S
Make it idiot proof and someone will make a better idiot.

Met the other two of the triple threat yesterday. Been a while since I met them. Laughed like crazy as usual ;D They never fail haha. As time goes by, I don't seem to have time for anything, but for bros, everything else can wait.

I wanna get headphones. I'm missing the feeling of being engulfed in my own world impervious to my surroundings. I don't mind being hit by a car or two. Ohh mannnn I want it so bad....

As time goes by, it loses its point,
Reasons fade away,
Language barrier goes up,
And im going out

2010-05-01T23:34:00.003+08:00

Heartbeat

GEMS
I joined personal financial planning. Its like... accounting? At least thats what twin said. Guess what my mum taught me was useful after all haha. All the cash flow, Cash In and Cash Out. Didnt bring notes as usual. Everyone there so quiet. Seems pretty much like a business class haha.

CCA
Dance Sport! Guess what. Thats what I'm gonna try out this year. I bet Joanne is SO excited (lol). I'm gonna shake my thang and boogy woogy LOL. =S

WORK
Busy as usual. FYI I have another job other than Prima. Its kinda time consuming, but should be rewarding haha. Wait till I got status then I'll tell the world haha.
EDDIE IS GONNA DIE WHEN I SEE HIM. Nothing else to be said.

PHONE
My phone is screwed! It has this "auto click" function that I "downloaded" when I dropped my phone. So if i hang up on you while you're calling me, its not my fault! It auto hangs up! And if my SMS-es seem short and rude, its cause its hard to type. I'll show you, just ask me...

TIME
I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME! So many things to do. So many people to meet. Every hour there is confirm someone calling. SMS. I'm not saying I'm famous or something... but I don't wanna be tied down to this!!

STRESS
What to do, what to do....

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away

2010-04-28T19:45:00.004+08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOMEEE
Best day of my life to be honest.
What can i say? Its nothing short of awesome =)

So cool to have the beat in your hands. I admire drummers cause they can read the beat of a song just like that. And when you can see it, the feeling is damn cool! just like getting perfect points for guitar hero haha. And overall, with beats like that, its just pure fun ;D Look at his expression haha

Been feeling very sleepy these few days. Haha maybe thats what happens when you get shocked every single day... Still not getting used to it i guess. Still being shot every single day ._.
I need to study! Seriously Eddie and Athraj aint studying for nuts, and this year's module is even more cheem! Siannnnnnnnn

So many things to plan too. FOC, GO GREEN, STUDY, ARRRRGHHHHH.
niabu ._.
I wanna go run soon. So many things i wanna do, so little time.... I admit I'm very bad with time management.

so damn tired? did you know how i tried to keep it up for a year? when others do to you, its all wrong and shitty, but when you do the same to others its fine? People didnt change, im just tired of reaching out.
Talk is cheap, yeah same to you too.

2010-04-26T10:23:00.002+08:00

Life's been kinda cramped. I seriously need time to live and breathe.

Standing on the roof tops, everybody scream your heart out...

Haha, I love the way I talk to the guys with shit loads of vulgarities but we don't mean it.
It just seems normal lol.

E - where the f***k are you
G - in class bodoh. eh s**t i got break later, wanna go eat?
E - i end at f***king 1 cb
G - same lahh f***ck
E - knn then find u at fc5 later uh
G - i duwan fc5 lahh ccb
E - knnccb then where you wan siol
G - fc3 lah nb
E - ok ok set lol

haha. FOC planning is driving me nuts. Feels like im walking on a road with alot of holes. Some things incomplete. Some things, dunno how to do. Screwed. RAMS, Emergency contacts, Safety protocol, Proposal. Why cant everything just be impromptu and tell the freshies to "join at your own risk". Thats the point of an indemnity form lol. Worked yesterday, bought new slippers haha nice (Y)

There's something different with the way i look. Look at me, then tell me what you think. Its small, but its there! Haha always wanted to try everything at least once. But now I don't know what to do with it...

Hmm... Its been a while since I did an eskimo roll... Hope I don't lose the feeling.
Or else i get a FAIL roll.
ha...
Funny uh?

Ok, I'm frigin hungry. Can you hear my stomach growl...

hey you
hear that?
can you hear how fast you make my heart beat?

2010-04-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

GREEN DAY! WOOO!! WE WON!! HAHA!!! FIRST PLACE!! 500BUCKS!!!

expected... =P kidding.

Was doing last minute practices though to me it really looked cmi haha. When we performed, Jon forgot his lyrics and some people forgot to do some stuff? Haha... When they announced the runner up and our group name wasn't there.... we were like... "Oh, if we not second then confirm we first lahh!" lol joke, but in the end it was true! haha!

Won 500 bucks, interviews from SPH, SP media, an autograph session at SB, a showcase, a write up on us, video clips and pics of us on GO GREEN WEBSITE!!! woo! sweet prize eh? ^^

I realise I'm a busy person... Hmm... maybe I should tone down abit... =/

Not only do I feel like shit, I also feel like shitting...

Haiz...

When I'm doing work, somehow I don't like to mix in fun with it. As in, when its time to be serious, I believe we shouldn't just waste time and fool around. There's a time for everything and that totally wasn't the time to be talking crap.

You make me feel....

2010-04-19T21:44:00.005+08:00

First day of school!

Started with a room full of freshies. Wa go there just to download software is damn dumb. Should have pon-ed and eventually did...
Went to find Eddie and Yan Hui, in their math class. Crash with them to find out Eddie is actually in my class... well, with all the forward module we have, its kinda complicated...
Haha its a fact ;)
Uncharted lands....

It was since the day I met you
Welcome to my life, I hope you'll stay
I'll know you better and you, me too
I just hope you won't go away

You make me happy, you make me smile
You never fail to surprise me every single day
And guess what, I think I'm in love with your smile =)

Just the girl I'm looking for

2010-04-18T11:57:00.002+08:00

Theres school tomorrow and guess what I found in my mail?

Please access the SAS for your timetable as there are some changes.
Regards, Lim B.S.

PS: Hi Battul, I have shifted the 2 DEEE students out from your DCEG class.

Dang youuuuuu. Now I gotta wake up early juz for SPROG! History is just gonna repeat itself!!

Hey! Hey you! Hey! Hey! Hey you! Hey! Hey! Hey you! Hey you! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey you!

Go to google.
Type " Who's the cutest"
Click I'm feeling lucky

=)

2010-04-17T23:52:00.003+08:00

So I'll sing, a melody...

Today was kind of a disappointment, in many ways...
Oh wells, thats what happens when your expectations are too high.

Had Level 1 sports climbing with "Eye Chin", and tried the roof =D Haha thrilling ^^ One fall and we swing like monkeys swinging through armpit hair~~ ATC's, Figure of 8, slings, cinch. Kinda cool learning things outside curriculum stuff =X Guess its been a while to me....

Went to find the Pastor's daughter after that at paya lebar (wtfudge??) As usual, she never stopped shocking me since 12 April...

HEY SUPERWOMAN! See what I can do ;D I didnt need to download ANYTHING!

Just the girl I'm looking for

2010-04-15T22:55:00.007+08:00

SEEE FOP

Had loads of fun. Too much fun you can say, till we were lectured for having too much fun ourselves and not entertaining the freshies haha. My face is in almost all the pics =D
Think all the freshies remember my face alr~

Our last group~ Hey, my shoe's missing haha

The only class that added us on FB. They have a class GROUP and me and Andrew were placed as "officials" haha. FION'S GROUP, find her!
Haaaaaaaaaaaaave you met Andrew? haha my partner for FOP ;D

HAHAHA!!!

Am I the fool? Am I a victim?

Woke up at like 7 today? Waited at BB at Burger King. I think thats where i got sick.... Sms-ed alfie loads of vulgarities cause hes damn slow.... Went twins house to give her gigantic tigger and change GEMS. Woots! Personal Financial!
Trained to amk.... Thats where i got DAMN sleepy. Took the priority seat and slept all the way there and back. I was so sleepy that I....
Walked into a pillar....
Sleep until damn unglam but i didnt care....
Keep almost walking into people....
Headaches!!

Reached school went straight to hilltop to sleep. On my laptop to on music then.... sleep.... In the end never go gym. Still damn tired and went basketball straight. =)

The basketball court is the place where I always feel safe somehow. It taught me respect like no other teacher could. Melvin used to get angry when he say even a cigarette on the floor. I won't mind but soap? Powder? And they don't even clean up after what they did. Like wtfudge?

Sidetracked, played bball with 10 peeps. frgt their name lol. Chi Peng, Charle, Zhen Yu, Jonathan Alvar, Jonathan Ang, Kenny, Algea and few more i can't remember...
Was sleepy at first, until the first ball went in and i find myself being elbowed in the face. Woke me up with a scar inside my mouth lol. Basketball is a good way of relieving stress haha.

It rained otw home, walked in the rain. Now that i know I got a fever.... I think that was damn stupid of me to walk in the rain... I was so cold even after i showered in HOT water that im shivering in my room with the fans off. Anyone been to my room would know its like an oven.... but i was shivering!

what should I do?
What you want, is what I don't want. I don't want to be that replacement again...

2010-04-12T23:43:00.002+08:00

Performing SP cheer infront of the whole SEEE. Cool shit.
FOP was damn hot today. Hot sun, with fan-less hall means gigantic OVEN. Was damn high at first but not so much when second group came. They were damn boring....
One of my lecturers came to me and was like....
Sir : Hey, Gha, I saw what you wrote, you're a good writer
Me : Write what? Where?
Sir : About GYL.
Me : Huhh?
Sir : Your blog?
Me : You know my blog???? OMGWTFBBQZOMGPEANUTBUTTERCHEESEPIEOSTRICH!

Successfull planning of family dinner today (Y)
Unfortunate incident : Melody, Zi yuan, Jun Guang and most of CLS GYL people were there. HAHA! DAMN PAISEH. WHY THERE OUT OF THE WHOLE SINGAPORE!?
WHY PASTA MANIA?!
Was telling my mum there was no more seats, though there are.... and in the end they came anyway.
Thanks Mun Noong for the card haha =P

FOP again tomorrow. I gotta stop this nasty habit of mine to volunteer for so many stuff cause I think I'm free.

Secret love, my escape.
Take me far far away.

2010-04-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

Don't waste your time on me
Your already the voice inside my head
I Miss You

2010-04-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

2010-04-11T01:04:00.005+08:00

You gotta think outside the box....

Life's getting a little too complicated for me to handle right now.

Work
Forward modules
GEMS
Studies
Family
Money
Planning
Camps

Everything needs to be straighten out! =/
Haha like my teacher used to say, we are given pressure not to crush under it, but to shine above it. And theres still things I wanna do for myself!

NYAA
PPCDL
3star kayaking
First Aid
Level 1 abseiling
Sports climbing level 1
Driving liscence??

Get my business? Anyways, finally got a planner from Prints =D 50% off baby, it was practically calling out to me haha. Now is no joke, I gotta buck up, suck up, and shut up.

I need 4 more points for community service and 12 more effective participating points for a Gold with Honors grade for CCA points. Cool shit.

Got my timetable a-lady~ My thurs would be from 8am-6pm. Cooler shit.

Hmm... gotta remember to appeal for forward module too.... Not so cool shit...

OH FUCK, just realised i got engineering maths again! I hate math.... screw calculus!

Everybody has their days~

2010-04-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

haha and the world keeps movin~

2010-04-07T01:18:00.003+08:00

Hey you, its your song =] so cheer up aite

Been living my 'other' life lately. 'Other' is concerning EEE and not SPA.
They're a fun bunch of dudes. Lets me do stuff without caring what people think.
Jump around, shout a cheer for no reasons, eat potato......

Had a long talk with Man Hong today haha. I like sitting down doing nothing and just talk. It doesnt matter what it is about, i'll listen. Society has made us careful of what we do or say in case other people who see us might judge. But who are we to judge? People rarely listen to what others have to say. But if we listen, we all have stories to share.
When I ask, I'm not trying to be nosy. But just to hear what you have to say.

Choices. We have many choices in life. But we're so focused on out primary goal and the easiest way to achieve it that we almost never see the other choices we have. We have a choice between passing and failing. Its just the consequences that will come after that. We have the choice to break the law. We have the choice to take the risk. There is no such thing as "There is no choice, I have to do this."

haha... im so sleepy now that my vision is blurring....
summarised 2 paragraphs cause I was drifting of topic haha.

When you're feeling lost. Don't give up because,
It's alright, When you close your eyes,
I'm by your side

change

2010-04-06T00:24:00.003+08:00

Everybody needs some time away, far away from each other

Replacements
Substitutes
Priorities

Its been haunting me since sec sch. Why cant we just get paired up with someone in primary school and be told to trust each other for life. Put each other first and you'll be best friends. Would'nt that be so much easier than trusting someone only to find out they put their friends before you? Maybe I shouldn't try anymore. Too many people asked me why I bother when I can't answer them.
I aint like Mother Theresa, I cant care without being cared for haha.

I wanna do some thrill seeking right now.

I tried(:

2010-04-03T22:21:00.006+08:00

unmute your computer.
scroll down.

hear that? Its for you.
Maybe its true, maybe we're empty.
Don't just give up, it takes to hands to clap.
I never stop trying, but what about you?4

On another note, move on to the next song =]
Good Day - The Click Five
Cause its not fun to be the one going out of my head
so i tell it to myself again
you're looking for something you can't find
if you give it up you'll lose your mind
there's always something in the way
but what can you say, you're gonna have a good day
Its one of the rare songs in sec sch where more than 4 ppl sing with me =D

My life's been very like "FRIENDS" , "A WALK TO REMEMBER" and abit of "POOH BEAR"?
ups downs confusion reality, what everyones life has.

Saw twin and yh today. Complicated movie stuff. Though wasted in the end. Watched Ju-On with Joyce, Mel and Glen. We guys were like covering our eyes the whole way while Joyce is staring at the screen unaffected... haha.... pathetic excuse for men. Lucky theres Joyce there or else we'd not know what happened when we cover our eyes.... One day im gonna scare her to prove she CAN be afraid....

I'm damn paranoid of every little thing now =( daaaaannnnnggggg.....
Ju-on uhh....

Theres more than one BEST friend, though BEST shld mean only one? GAY

My girl friend is my enemy, and my enemy is my best friend while my best friend became my girl friend.
-SKY HIGH-

Nou se mond la
nou se timoun yo

2010-03-31T00:23:00.002+08:00

IWANTSTARCRAFT2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please buy it for me =D And I shall give you a million hugs =D

heyimanerdtoo ^^

2010-03-30T22:46:00.006+08:00

Its been on my mind =]

All that i do, is not enough for you,
Don't wanna lose it,
But I'm not like that

Ever felt so useless?
Ever felt like some small guy in someone elses world trying to make a difference?
Ever felt that you're wrong to care?
so I'll ask again, who am I to you?

face it, accept it, move on =)

and thats it

2010-03-30T09:06:00.002+08:00

3 questions

Had a sharing session while ton-ing at ECP with SPA peeps.
Things that were to be said were said.
Finally got some answers. Finally got some reasons.
It may not be one of the best sharing sessions, but its a start =]
When you reach WCS, I guess anything will have to do haha.
No offense, none taken ;D
silence

reaching out for you

2010-03-28T11:46:00.003+08:00

Thoughts

Ahh... found sometime to chill out with my lappy~ Its rare these days....

The world is starting to scare me. All the things about september 11 being a conspiracy, that the US is planning to take over the world and stuff. And they do it by bombing their own country first..... It may all be wrong and just crap but all the what-ifs come to my mind. All the evidences make sense and what if their troubles were to come here? The prophesied 2012 may be caused of it? Ever seen all those apocalyptic movies? Lol, where on earth can i hide....

Weddings. Where people tie the knot, or themselves to each other lol. Last time whenever my mum tell me theres a wedding, I'm always only interested on the foood! But now, I'm thinking. Isn't it amazing that they can find their other half out of the billions and millions people in the world? Its already amazing enough that the one they love, love them back.

Aite, enough babbling, heres a story of a fisherman =P ciao~

Jealousy

The Fisherman.

An investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The investment banker complimented the fisherman on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The fisherman replied, “Only a little while.”

The investment banker then asked, “Why didn’t you stay out longer and catch more fish?”

The fisherman said, “With this I have more than enough to support my family’s needs.”

The investment banker then asked, “But what do you do with the rest of your time?”

The fisherman said, “I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, stroll into the village each evening and spend time with my family, I have a full and busy life.”

The investment banker scoffed, “I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to a big town and eventually to the the city where you will run your ever-expanding enterprise.”

The fisherman asked, “But, how long will this all take?”

To which the investment banker replied, “15 to 20 years.”

“But what then?” asked the fisherman.

The investment banker laughed and said that’s the best part. “When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions.”

“Millions?…Then what?”

The investment banker said, “Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings and spend time with your family.”

2010-03-25T22:54:00.021+08:00

EEE GYL

Back from GYL camp!
For those of you who didnt know, I went for EEE GYL camp at M'sia along with the CLS.

Basically it was a typical leadership camp, but it was more fun on the GALA night.
Ohh, theres paintball too, but when i realised the ability of the paint ball to go straight is very bad, it quickly became boring. Hitting the small cup targets were only by chance and the balls leave quite some bruises.

Compared to the CLS, our GALA night was very very high where everyone laughed till their guts came out. I guess it because we were mainly guys so we knew how to have fun ^^When we went up to the CLS room, it was so quiet and formal that we were struck by the change in atmosphere. Haha. Our dress code was pyjamas and theirs was formal. You can imagine the akwardness haha. When their GALA king and queen were doing the catwalk, they got a round of applause. When OUR GALA king and gay were walking, we did the PERERA wave haha.

In the end we decided to bring the party to their night by blasting music and started jumping up and down. That was the FIRST time in my entire history of SP that i felt that high. Everyone was. I literally just went up to 2 guys i didnt know, put one arm around each shoulder, wait 3secs for the choras and..... start shouting/singing it while jumping! Thats officially the fastest and weirdest way I made a friend haha.

My group name was "outcast" cause we all agreed we all have been outcasted before. We also agreed that since we were gonna be outcasted, we were gonna be a different breed of group. The most hyper. The most loudest. The most bonded. Haha and thats what happened. It went so well that half way through the camp, other group people began to join us during lunch, breakfast and dinner haha. Its been a while since I've been out with the guys only. Theres a different feel when theres no girls ya know. At first I was like "damn, no girls, its gonna be boring" but then the guys were talking about how its better cause girls from SB keep stabbing people in the back. No offense, EEE guys also stab people. But its more out in the open and not behind haha. Its fun anyways, get to go crazy and all, its the escape I was looking for =)

This boy was in the CLS GYL camp. We realised we were going to the same camp at 1am on that day lol.

OUTCASTS!!!

Bollywood can also be found in malaysia...

Paintball in the RAIN!!

VICTORY : we won all 3 groups. Sharpshooters eh? Guess which is me

Hmm......

DING! I got an idea!

OUTCAST! Alex extreme right, joined us. I cant seem to use the chopsticks properly and when I finally can, the food was gone =(

Some game to challenge the process...

Trying to bring the fun to the CLS GALA night. The atmosphere was undescribable. Damn high, loads of fun. Everyone juz danced or jumped to the beat~!
Stack 'em up~ haha plenty of these during the camp
I look tall here haha, graduated!

EEE GYL FTW WTH OMG BBQ ._.

Oh, theres also another way to move room to room....
tada~~

On the way back, few peeps from other groups, me and jon went to get same shirt for no big reason. We got our own fan page haha! there are only 5 of us but i don't know why more fans! haha ELECTRON BOYS

Change - No more procrastinating. Its time for change.

A post of lyrics.

2010-03-22T01:27:00.009+08:00

A Post Of Lyrics

"I'll Be Ok"

Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be someone. Played my part.

Like a saturday night I'll be gone

2010-03-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

Action speaks louder than words
Listen to the words I never said....

2010-03-17T01:19:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BDAY LINGY!!!! [160310]
You cheat my feelings too much alr lol
Life may be fast, but you can take things slow and steady ;D
And next time, ask you bf if he fetching you home!

HAPPY BDAY STEPHANIE!!! [160310] =)
5 years old! haha forever 5~
I didnt have time to wrap the presents and I think i forgot to take the tags off lol sorry!

Went kayaking as usual, tide was high, oil was slimy. Tried to do rolls again, think im starting to get the feel for sweep roll. Not bad... haha. Fought for plantoon dominance lol, something we must keep doing to keep the tradition! lol.

shit, still forgot to dubb the sea store key....

Went all the way to the other side of the country for Stephanie's BBQ~! [Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.Lingy cheat my feeling.]
Helped her mum at the BBQ pit! She said i was handsome ^^ This is the second time she told me this. And this is the second time I met her! LOL. Her mum is very... lively lol. I had to make a conscious effort to remind myself she is not just a few years older than me. She is a MUM. Her Butter Prawns (which ironically has no butter in it) are still the best lol. Slacked with tootie and her mum while Steph and the kids go up lol. Tootie got drunk somehow and started dancing. My eyeballs shrank....

Listening to the rest talking bout their teenage troubles makes me feel like I want those troubles so that I can crap it out with them lol. Had ice-cream cake! Though I was more interested in the dry ice lol. It started bubbling when its placed in the water. Pool water of course haha. While everyone else were packing up upstairs, getting ready to go home, I was with tootie and Steph's mum downstairs talking ADULT stuff. Haha kidding. Was sent to mrt and I went wee wee wee all the way home~~

I can't let this happen again
Cause then you'd see my heart
In the saddest state its ever been
This is no place, to try and live my life
Relient K - Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

Living one step at a time....

2010-03-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

We treat different people differently for a reason.

Maybe because they always joke around so we take things they say as a joke even if they mean it.
Maybe because they are always serious so we take things they say seriously even if its a joke.
Maybe because they told you that you never listen so you take everything they say seriously and lost your ability to joke with them.
Maybe they told you that you have no sense of humor so to prove them wrong you laugh at everything they say.

Even if everyone say the same thing, each and everyone of us would get a different response. Some might laugh, some might believe. Some might ignore, while some might listen.

Is that fair?

Just because he is quiet so you don't tell him things even if he should know it. He'd be like a frog in a well, not knowing anything that is happening around him.
Doesn't that make him shut himself even more?

Maybe its something they said, or something that you assume they think.

How do you solve this problem?
Do you tell them people that they never listen, and everyone would take you seriously even when you tell a joke.
Then you'd have to tell them you're just joking, and they would never take you seriously.

Sometimes I think, if you confront the problem, it would only create more problems.
Bias. Thats the word.

I'm not used to being a background character.
Im not complaining, I'm just putting down my thoughts on black and white.
And you'll be sighing saying "not again"

2010-03-08T01:06:00.003+08:00

Leaving for Genting in a few hours time. See you'all peeps in 3 days ;D

2010-03-07T00:46:00.001+08:00

People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you may win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.
People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.

Mother Theresa

Handover was a success. Haha I guessed everyone had fun =) Somehow it didnt feel like the seniors were really gonna leave to me. Nevertheless it was great. Thanks to all the guys carrying the chairs and tables. Its really a pain-in-the-ass labour work. Appreciate it. Chi heng and Benedict too for coming to school today for only half an hour to help shift all the chairs and tables on a sunday morning haha. Sounds like we have no life =X

Found something...
lol die daily! haha!

2010-03-06T00:28:00.003+08:00

Shocked. Happy. Surprised. Curious. Elated. Speechless.
Currently (still) being flooded by emotions. To the point where I don't know what to say or which emotion to show haha.
Hmm.... I'll start from this...

THANKS SPA FOR THE BAG!!!!

Its damn cool! And its actually damn perfect! Haha! Theres a shoe compartment and a place for my laptop. SWEEEEEEEEEET

And...

THANKS CHUN YU DUAN FOR THE....... PLANK!!! haha! I mean board =)

Its really very nice (Y) HANDMADE okay. Painstakingly glued, cut, chosen, written! Now I understand what you wanted to make haha. Nice! (Y)

Awestruck.

Playing with the kids was quite fun actually =) They make me feel needed haha. I guess lingy's right. According to her, I'll always be the one babysitting kids during any gathering.

you make me wonder

2010-03-04T19:23:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BDAY TAN LIWEN [040310]
Your lucky I didnt post an unglam pic of you cause you know I got a million and one haha!Ok uhh... this is the most not unglam of the unglams haha. It aint all that bad =X Brown eyes =D Seee, you look so pale. Eat and exercise lol. Follow your hubby haha.

Thanks for all the well wishes people! Especially those who wrote the letters =) It means more to me than you know =) Finally finished replying all facebook posts. All of the replies are different and unique ok! Not generic~~

Ran to Kent Ridge from school today! Its a total exercising day haha. Bball, gym, run, swim. Sweat it out!
Happy birthday to me~

Because I'm weary
Invisible

2010-03-02T10:02:00.003+08:00

"We have so many masks we put on everyday that we realise we don't longer know which one is real."

Last paper! And I'm free~~! Still have to make police report of missing IC though I got everything back. Troublesome school. Looking back on past posts (as in way way back like 2 years ago) those times we're actually very carefree. Don't hafta plan for anything the next day (other than dreaded training) Guess its all in the process in "Growing Up".

I wanna go to the sea. Just stare at the waves, feeling the sea breeze and smelling the salty sea water. I feel strangely calm in the water. Its the next best thing to music. It lets my mind drift away...

Greatly in need of an escape. Not just from exams. Hmm, maybe Genting would help. Sleepless nights would be the best. Hopefully I'd get "The View" =P

Accept it and move on. The usual.

2010-02-27T22:52:00.006+08:00

Alfie Teng left me cold, freezing, hungry, lonely, tired and bored under his block. Called him a million times on his phone but he never answered. Luckily his sister heard it and answered. She still remembers me haha, for all the wrong reasons. While that idiot went out and "forgot" to bring his phone.

AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways. Been slacking with the triple threat. I learned a few stunts and tricks! Gotta train more to do them better! There's this pipe at Glens pool which just pours out tons of water, feels like a waterfall when you stand under it. Sat there a while talking crap. 5mins later my back was already itching and red from the "waterfall" the itch was kinda adictive haha. 10min and my back was kinda numb, but I like the feeling! Wonder if the monks are training to endure that pain ._.

Hmm, DE last paper and I'm free. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things i wanna do. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things I wanna get. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many excuses to not study lol.

ahh, the old days. This was made when we had to make a video for Social Studies. These are just the bloopers. Pat made this. Featuring Gha, Mel, Glen, Jasmine Ker, Yulin and Patrick! Anybody knows how I can download this video?

Feelings are a chore

2010-02-25T20:15:00.004+08:00

FUCKINGA
SSHOLESO
NOFABITC
HBASTARD
KNNBCCBD
ICKSHITC
RAPTURDW
HOREPISS

I lost my wallet.

2010-02-24T22:54:00.004+08:00

Went to make my atm card today! YES! I know I'm very very very outdated, all these time you people used these cards all I had were pieces of paper and flat round metal. Now I'm joining you modern peeps yo! Yeah, I'm still HIP and COOL ^^v
Haha, but exactly after I made it and went school, Jian Wei told me debit card was better, which I agree..... Anyone up to get a UOB debit card? The perk is you'll be more hip =)

Walked around Queensway with Pang, Arvin and Duan finding someone to make our shirt. We ended up walking to Ikea, and Anchorpoint, round and round lol like Bermuda triangle. Totally didnt feel like theres exams, though it NEVER feels like theres an exam other than the day itself. Laughed alot today, my mum once told me "Never laugh too hard or too long. Later misery and sadness would catch up to you." I always believed it, cause after you get high and crazy, once you're out of the high-ness... haha, like drinking coke =D

P.S. Thanks Guoshu and Gui Hao for helping me with my studies!
P.P.S. Alfie you're totally dead on friday for leaving me waiting for you below your house and leaving you're handphone at home at9PM!

hypocrite
I tried

2010-02-20T01:22:00.003+08:00

Water balloooooooooon! lol!

Just realised I keep stopping halfway in almost everything I do. Music, training, basketball, programing. Haha, bet you didnt know i did some of these stuff. I need someone to keep egging me on I guess, or else when it gets to the hard part, my mind would just shut off like a bird fainting in the sky ._.
Jack of all trades master of none? Haha better than nothing, but I think I need to be proficient in something or else I won't be satisfied! grrr

On another note, I feel like running ._. Its been a while since I sweat out by running. I wanna sprint. Run far and fast without stopping. No boundaries =) Then breathe hard as though I'm about to die haha!
Or play basketball! Been damn long since I had a serious match. Head to head. Blacking out everything else in my mind. Everything moves slow. Haha I bet anyone who doesnt play basketball would be like "wtf is he talking about?"
I wanna run, jump, fly. C'mon anyone?

You, are not "everyone" else.
you only appear as "everyone"
when you're not important to someone

Hilda - waa, motivational speaker lol!

Enough broooooooooooding, time to spread the smiles ;DNice pic! (Y) haha! Thanks Jasmine for inviting us over!!! Woo~!!
I wan mini eclare nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!
I don't mind where you come from, as long as you come to me

2010-02-18T01:29:00.005+08:00

Thanks yutai for inviting us and treating us KFC today haha. Nice house, artistic haha.
Jus cause of an art piece in the living room lol! Watched small big.....
.... after that. Funny, but its generally slap-stick humour. Wanted to watch Valentines day, but SOME people...... cheat my money lol. 3rd Movie in 3 days. Save la!
So now you know.

When the visions around you, bring tears to your eyes.
And all that surrounds you, are secrets and lies....
Have you ever felt so lonely in a crowded room?

2010-02-16T23:56:00.005+08:00

Been out with the sec sch gang recently lol. Been awhile, when you wanna meet up I guess you gotta plan yourself lol. Played bball till I cracked my ribs from laughing haha. Been a while since I literally roll on the floor laughing LOL! Bball with them is more a joke than a game lol. Went Gym at my hse after that. Somebody was suppose to come later and stay over no matter tornado, tsunami, or earthquake! But he ps us..... so juz went to swim then mel left~

KERYN WAI KAR LING. See, I remember your full name. Its been a year since you said anything so now we're putting matters in our own hands and called you LOL. Its been a century since we had a conference lol. But as usual, you're FOC, full of crap....

Today was the most waste money day. There was actually another intent for this day but it totally didnt happen lol. I was late, but I came even LATER thanks to mel. Watched the lightning thief thingy. Not bad. But i think the ending is abit rushed? =X We had to sit front row so neck abit...... THEN, things happened and bla bla bla, suddenly I find myslef getting tickets again, for 14 blades. FRONT ROW again.... haha but it was a nice movie, lucky they don't talk much while fighting or else I cant see the fights cause I gotta read the subtitles lol. 2 movies, wasted 20 bucks. In a day. Damn fast. First time I spend my WHOLE day at JP. Epic fail.

ARVIN, wanna watch Dear John??

I'm back in business =]
Trying

2010-02-15T01:14:00.004+08:00

Went to my cousins erm.... wedding preparation?
Its not exactly the wedding. Went to my cousins house for food (bwahaha) and carried all the gifts to the bride-to-be house. I dropped a whole tray of sweets which was for the bride's family! Omg! Damn malu sia. My mum was like "Lucky i forgot to tell everyone you worked as a waiter before" -.- I was trying to keep my ipod with one hand and the tray in the other when yuduan msg-ed me. Gave me a shock and... there goes the whole tray...... Luckily i wasn't carrying the rings! LOL

Went finding Guoshu at harbourfront. Shes doing the survey job! haha, shes under LTA but I was under Tourism. Should have taken my advice and just bullshit the survey lol. Hey, experienced minds give good advoce ^^v Went slacking at esplanade with Pang, Jian Wei and yuduan. Took a ride on the "Meteor" at the carnival. It jus spins and spins. Felt like vomiting a few times after that though =X I like those kind of rides cause at night, I'd always feel like im on the ride even though I'm on my bed haha. Big waves works too =D Rock me to sleep lol!
Unnecessary?
The little things in my life. I'm afraid that I take them for granted everyday. So I'd do something a little special everyday ;D Haha

Ur asking for an ipod for your birthday?? Ok, I think i need 2 more jobs...
I really hate arguments. I'll learn

2010-02-13T21:41:00.005+08:00

ALRIGHT~!!!!
To all the peeps who celebrate it, HAPPY CNY!!!
Probably wouldnt have time to read this cause they'd be too busy stuffing themselves haha.
Went kayaking today, for once I'm not any darker haha. Gonna wear rash guard more often.
Found out people DO come here to read this crap. TAG lahhhhhh, i thought no one read sia =X
Yes, I'm talking to you. -.-

what are u waiting for?

go click! >>

This looks like a scene of a mafia murder lol! All wearing the same shirt too. The water there was quite shallow. Even if you stand at where the waves are formed, it would only be up to ~~your~~ my waist.

HAHA! FINALLY someone can explain what music is to me lol!
Music clears the mind of conscious thought so you won't have to keep thinking about anything that you're not supposed to. Yeah, so true.
So sing out loud ;D

Cant show, cant tell.